my STORY.

2006-10-18T06:39:00.000-07:00

haven blog for ages.haha.
well.was freaky lazy to.hahah:D

well.school reopen alr.
module for this sem are realy interesting.
3d modelling,animation fund,storyboardin,drawing figures,digi.etc.
haha.
attended some of them this week alr.
really fun
haha.

super bored now!!
need to get more shirts!!!
wanna go shopping.
no money!!
sigh
shall wait for next month.
payday!!
hahhaa.
hm
shall stop here.

2006-09-30T03:52:00.000-07:00

argh!friggin bored!
i'm at my aunt place now.
without my wacom.i can't draw.
i'm not use to usin the trackpad.
sigh.
i'm bored!
didn't really go anywhere to enjoy this week.
hols are about to end i guess.
haha.
i dunno when i'm actually startin school lah.haha.

i wanna get a new diary.wahaha.
though i haven finished with my old one.
haha.
i haven even wrote anything in it for a long looOOng time.
hahh.
finished readin the book,the boesetter's daughther.
haha.
really nice!haha.
i wanna get another amy tan book.
haha.
her books are interesting.
haha.
i'm missing.....hmmmmm..nevermind.
damn!
i'm seriously feelin super duper bored now.haha.
i wanna go out!!!
and i'm feelin kinda hungry now.haha
guess i'm jus a pig.
eatin non stop.and i didn't do any exercise.wahahaha.

sigh,guess i'll jus stop here.
byeeeeee.:D

2006-09-26T10:11:00.001-07:00

i wanted you to know i love the way you laugh
i wanna hold you high and steal your pain away
i keep your photograph; i know it serves me well
i wanna hold you high and steal your pain
cause i'm broken when i’m open
and i don’t feel like i am strong enough
cause i’m broken when i’m lonesome
and i don’t feel right when you’re gone away
the worst is over now and we can breathe again
i wanna hold you high, you steal my pain away
there’s so much left to learn, and no one left to fight
i wanna hold you high and steal your pain
cause im broken when i’m open
and i dont feel like i am strong enough
cause i'm broken when i’m lonesome
and i dont feel right when you’re gone away

went jammin on mon.
played drums.hahha.
i need more practice!!.
hahha.
the guitar intro for this song is like damn nice.i love it like hell lot.hahha.
this song is really great too.though its kinda old.hahha.

well.
still on hols.and i'm gettin freakin bored!!!
been readin THE BONESETTER'S DAUGTHER by amy tan.
interesting.haha.
the character luling really sound like my mum.
wahaha.
always so emotional.want to die most of the time.haha.
well.both of them really have a lot of similiarities.haha.

arg!
holidays are borin!!
hope there's more gg out to look forward for.
if not its only work work and more work.

nothin more..
bye then:)
runaway!runaway!runaway!willyoucomewithme?

2006-09-26T10:11:00.000-07:00

2006-09-21T07:01:00.000-07:00

bout TODAY!:)
woke up at six in the mornin.YAWNSS!!
met sketching group and ms gail at bugis at 830am. -half awake-
walked to kampong glam.and along the way,took pics of the old houses.
i didn't bring my cam.so i didn't take an pics:(
gail gave us some tips on photography.
then we had breakfast at this cafe in kampong glam.
had long tong and tea cino:))
had a small talk wit gail bout colours and how to use them to convey messages.
gail then left for work and so we left too.
haha.
didn't wanna sketch cause it was rather sunny.haha.
walked to bugis.went to kino,bought the bonesetter's daughter by amy tan.
stayed in kino for quite awhile before gg to basheer at bras basah.
saw a few books at basheer.
tempted to get it on the spot but had to have enough cash for later.
i shall get it another day.heh.
head back to bugis to catch a train down to tiong.
reached tiong damn early.
haha.
then left for marina.
had carl's jr.
and then movie,singapore dreamin.
walked around then home.
met gail for notes.
like damn!
now she noes i live ard her house.argh!

i wish i could turn you into the size of my palm,so that i can keep you in my pocket and bring you where ever i go.

2006-09-08T09:04:00.001-07:00

ALRIGHTS!
i'm back to blog.
been gone for days.cause i couldn't access blogger and partly because i'm jus freakin lazy.heh.

on hols now.school will only reopen somewhere ard mid oct.
which is quite long.hahah.
i'm kinda of bored now.
hols are really boring.
work and home.
sometimes hang out for a while.
work is alr like occupying 70% of my time.
hard to find time to go out wit friends.
but for certain ppl i would give up wrk for them.hahha.

KRUNK
was at krunk because my friends and i set up a booth there.
we were selling shirts that we designed.
hmm.
but sales wasn't good at all.cause ppl went there to party than to buy stuff:(
many other stall made a loss.they left super early but we still stayed till bout four plus.
well.business is bout profit and loss.
sometimes we make.sometimes we lose.
so i would say i take tat as a learnin experience.
hahah.
nat was one of the organisater.so was neng hui.
didn't really catch up much wit nat cause she was like super busy.
spent time hanging ard wit chuanny,stan and aili.
woo.that reminds me:)
i made a new friend.
aili.
haha.
she was formerly from stc too.and now she's like studyin at nyp too.hahaha.
haha.
the four of us jus walked ard.went for a drink.didn't wanna go down to the dance floor cause it was muddy and all.
to be frank.
krunk was actually quite boring.hahaha
then we jus sit ard playin stupid games.haha.
yupp.
then met rach mak(pts),luying,dan,rach bro,rach bro pretty friend.haha.
i hang ard wit rach for a while.
jus went to get food.hahha.
saw rach bro friend.really pretty.wahaha.
then they left for the dance floor.
didn't wanna go.so went back to find chuanny and all.
haha.
didn't catch up with dan too.
hahah.
nvm.we'll meet up soon.hahah.
okay.i think tat's all.cause chuan and all left then i went to my pathetic booth.hahah.
shall post pics:)

chuan,stan.me and aili:)

us again:))

without the light.hahaha:DD

chuan and me:)

rights.that's for krunk.

hahha.

been rotting at home and gg to work these few days.hahha.
alll i do at home is sit infront of my comp and d/l songs for ppl.
then do my digital paintin.(yea.like real...i haven even started.WAHAHA:DD)
oh ya!!
i bought nike dunks.
couldn't get the red and black dunks cause don't have my size:((
so bought the green and yellow one instead:)))heh.
next one.i'm gona get VANS:))hehe.

TA DAA!!:D
heheeh.my shoesssss

iloveyouiloveyouioveyou:))

2006-09-03T23:40:00.000-07:00

RIGHTS.
blog,i shall.
since i have time now.
plenty of time.
haha.
first up.
got over with STUDIO PROJECT,PRESENTATION.ETC.
results will be out next week.
hope i didn't score badly.
haha.
and then was KRUNK.
it was time out with friends.
meeting up with the rest.
but as for business.
it was BAD BAD BAD.
well.
don't wanna talk about that anymore.
makes me sad.
hah.
hope to clear our stock at some flea market or something.
haha.
was hangin around wit chuan and stan,
and i made a new friend!!
haha.she's formally from stc and presently in NYP.
woah.
that's like the same as me lah.
hahahah.
she's aili/aileen??
i think?
hahaha.
-confused-
hahaha.
but she's funny.
haha.
the four of us were like crappin away.haha.
hang ard with rach at ard 2 plus 3 i think.haha.
she was with luying and dan.and a few others of their friends.
rach's bro was there too.
so cool.can actually go club with her bro.
haha.
her bro had this really pretty friend lah.
haha.
didn't get to catch up with dan or nat.
hah.
nat was like so busy.
say she will come to my stall oso nv turn up:(
i think i see her sis more then i see her lah.hahaha.
okay.
there's nothing much to talk about krunk anyway.
its just like partyin and havin fun.hahah
oh ya.this really good lookin guy came to buy a shirt at our stall.haha.
but i think he's gay.hahha.
so too bad.
wahahaha.
ah...
yea.
that's all.
kinda lazy to type.heh.
bye:)

2006-08-22T07:47:00.000-07:00

GOSH.
i'm just freakin tired!!
been drawin since ytd.
hands are startin to ache.
FREAKIN TIRED.
creative brain cells are startin to burn out.
i need HOLIDAY pleaseeee!!!
take me somewhere far away.
hahaha.
needa work tomoro.
which also means my precious 6 hours is gone.
damn.
i need more time for my project!!
arggg.
wadever.
shall go back to drawin.
haha.

its retribution!!hahaha.

2006-08-16T07:15:00.000-07:00

i just did something that i noe i HAVE to do it.but yet have hundreds,thousands,millions,zillions and trillions "don't want" to do it.
i HATE this kind of feelins.it hurts twice as bad.or even more.
cause i feel the pain and yet i can't cry.
felt totally empty.

i don't wish to leave you.
but i noe i have to.
cause i noe i can't give you forever.
and for you to find someone who can really give you that is to let you go.
afterall,i'm not a guy.
if only i was,i guess things would be diff.
sometimes,i dreamed of our future.
i actually have things to dream about.
really naive.
knowin that its impossible and all.
how nice it would be...sighs.
you'll look for someone better.
someone who can really give you forever.
you'll be able to let it go.
at least..
get over it faster than i do.
wadever it is...
i jus wanna say..
wadever i promised you in the past.and recently.
i meant it.
i meant every single word i say.
all from the bottom of my heart.
and i'll still keep those promises.
even if you were gone.
even if you were never coming back.

in every box of cigarettes.
there'll be a wishin stick.
but mine would be as good as none.
cause i'm wishin for somethin that'll never happen.

i think i'm leavin this for a while.
not gona blog bout anything.
nat,chuan,if there's aything,msg me.yupp.
bye everyone.
bye world.

2006-08-12T09:23:00.000-07:00

my mood: SUCKS to the core!!!!

mornins!afternoon!good nights!!
hahahahahahahahahahahahha.
BONKERSSSS!!

went to orchard early in the mornin to take pics for studio proj.
walked from one end to another of orchard then left for nb.
did research.wrote a few stuff.
stayed there till 5 plus.then returned to town to do sketches.
did three on ngee ann city.
then took pics of taka at nite.
went home.
no.corrections.its to my aunt place.

bloggin usin my laptop now.
first time.

damnnnnnn.
feelin damn lousy now.
feel i'm such a lousy stead.
she's not in a good mood cause of don't noe wad?
i don't even noe!!
:(((
i wanna help but i can't.
i can't! i can't!!
ARGGGGGGG.
nothin i can doooooooo!!!!!
USELESS!!
she don't tell me anything when she meet wit a prob.
am i that useless?
like hell.
anyone understands???
ARGGGGGG.
wad can i do?
tell me?
i'll try to help?
am i tat unreliable?
am i tat not trustable??

wadever it is.
you noe i won't leave you to go thru all this alone.
anything happens.
anything.
you still have ME.
i PROMISED!
i don't wan you to be sad.
only wan you to be happy.
cause when you're down
i'm down:((
it hurts so bad each time to see you sad!:((

vjgugfsgdfgsudgfkdgfsgdfgsadfksdgfasgdfigsdfiagsilfvaisudgouasgdf!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

ARRGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG!!

2006-08-09T00:20:00.000-07:00

welcome WOLRD!!
let's start all the eom-ing.
HAHA.

i'm suppose to be rushin my pd 15.
but i'm like slackin here.
hmm.
jus really tired after standin from 11 in the mornin to 6 in the evening to draw.
losin my concentration.
which is a very bad thing.

went to lau pa sa.
meet dear to pass her her present.
ros was expectin to see more.
like wth.
wait long.
haha.

don't noe lah.
been thinkin bout stuff lately.
i love dan!!
haha
she's like my advisor.
she noes how i feel.
like excatly.
now.
haha.
should i?or should i not?

oh well.
this manager at mac toady,gave me my coke in this kiddy cup.like wth!!
then my friends were like sayin its because they saw me carryin the cookie monster ard.
i was like some weirdo to ppl.kept staring.tsk.
then this policeman came up to me and ask if the bag of things were mine.
haha.think wad?got bomb ar?
...
haha.

sian.
why do i feel so emo???
freakkkkk
(cause i can't get down to an ans)

2006-08-08T00:21:00.000-07:00

had school today.
CODID!
jus love ms gwen lee!!
she totally ROCKKKKSS!
hahah
i've got A,A+,A,B+ for my project!!!!
heheheh.
finally i'm seein As.heh.
i guess we all got As for prac 5,as in my grp.
cause i'll work will be put up for exhibtion in sch.heh!!
WHEE!
ms GWEN LEE ROCCCKKKSS!!
hahaha.:DD

school was fine today.
had another studio proj breifin today:)
totally cool.
had a better view of the proj .haha.
went o get cheow present and ate at AZABO SABO!!
hehe.
the desserts are yum yum.heh.
went to my aunt place's for my sis birthday thingy.
then home.

my whole life i've waited for that special someone.and that's YOU!!:))
i love 09:)

2006-08-07T00:42:00.000-07:00

okay.i shall blog whenever i have time.
slightly relax today.cause the major deadlines have passed alr.
my head's achin now.i guess its mild migrain.
i can't really focus.
and i can feel the pain build up cause now my eyes feel likes they're droppin out.
like damn!
i hate migrain!!!!
but its not as pain as how my heart felt when you say you were gg to do those silly things.
don't do that alright.
it won't help.
it'll only make you feel worst.
PLEASE.don't do that.
if there's anything bothering you.
i'm always here for you.
we'll try to work things out alright??
don't do silly stuff,please.
if you think there's no one who cares for you in this world.
you're so wronggg.
cause i CARE!!alot!
don't say i'll find someone better.
cause if its ain't you,there's no one else i want.
if you think you're a burden.
no.
you're not.
but if you really are.
then you'll be a burden i'm so willingly to carry my whole life.
i don't care wad you're gg to say to make me give up on carin bout you.
i'm still gona stay put.
i'm always always here for you.
baby,wad's wrong??
tell me.talk to me.
don't keep it all inside okay?

vision starts to get blur-er.
if i focus.
it only hurts more.
ARGG
stupid migrain!!go away!!

2006-08-06T01:21:00.000-07:00

OH MAN!
finally i could like squeeze a little time for bloggin.haha
well.
i'm dead beat!:(
this week worst the worst week ever!!.
deadline was like all on the same date.
so the past few dates was like rushin to complete my work.
slept barely for three hours each day.
and because of colour theo.
i gave up one night of sleep.
really tired.can jus doze off any time,anywhere.
poly life seriously sucks!
its like you get real busy till you won't even have time to have a little fun.
ARGH!
guess wad?
STUDIO PROJ!!!
its like startin next week.
but i have to start my research alr.
location:ORCHARD ROAD
think i'll be jumpin for joy?
NO.
cause i rather get a boring boat quay which have a more interesting history than orchard road.
its like when thinks are more fun to work with.the biggest challenge is tat you have to really think out of the boxxx!
if i don't do well for this.i'll have retake everything next year!like fuckshit!
orchard will be my second home startin from next week.
will have to spend more tim there to get familiar with that place.

anyway
for today.
went to meet shuyu and maysi at ard 5 plus.
but because of some complication i ended up meetin shuyu first at 5 plus.
before that i went to look at present for dear.
i think i noe wad to get alr.
hahha.
then met shuyu.
then maysi.
rushed to jack's place cause we were supposed to give janet a surprise.
she didn't noe we were gg there.haha
but end up we didn't really suceed.haha.nevermind.cause at least she was surprised,haha
janet's sister so totally look like her.
they are like photocopies of janet.hahaha
well.
then we went to take neoss.
haah.
then left.yupp.
hahaaha.
so glad that at least we all met up again.
miss them all loadS!!!
but we spent quite a short time.
hope we can have more fun on dan's birthday!!
hahaha.
guess i shall stop here.
really tired.
shall go to sleep.
hehe.

2006-07-24T23:38:00.000-07:00

okay.
i've been really lazy this few days.
so i couldn't bother to blog.
hahaha.
well.
but i wanna blog about fri.heheh.

chuan got tics to go to zpop.
hehe.
so she asked me if i wanted to go too.
haha.
i noe wad's her intention.
and i really appreciates it:)
i love chuanny!!!:D

we were suppose to meet at lucky plaza at 7.
but i was late cause i forgot my house keys and had to run back to get it.haha.
surprisingly,dar was early lah.hahaha.lol.
then both of us waited for chuan and stan.
it was damn crowed lah.
chuan and stan appeared in time to catch bus 16.
haha.they jus popped out of don't noe where.
haha.

there were qite a number of old folks there too.haha.
funny ar.
i doubt they noe who were the ones singin.hahha.
dar tried to act cute lah.lol.hahaha.
cause they had to check bags if we had any before we could enter.
then she was like carryin this small purse thingy and she wanted to give it to the security guard to check.hahaha.
act cute only leh.hahaha
but well.you're cute.hahaha.
concert was fine.haha.
jus that she say she felt cold.
i didn't bring jacket or anything.
asked if she wanted to get something warm to drink.
but she didn't want.
felt kinda useless.cause i couldn't do anything.
actually i tot of huggin her.but i think she would mind.
i don't noe.
so i didn't.
haha.
well.
haha.
cabbed home at ard 1220.
was rather fast cause i took another cabbed from her place.
haha.
well.gotta go call nat now.byee:))
wo xiang jiu ahe yang qian ahe ni de shuo bu fang kai!!

2006-07-20T23:52:00.000-07:00

didn't blog yesterday cause i was busy.hahah.
and partly because i was lazyy.heh.

well.nothin much happen ytd.
let's talk bout today then.
went for lecture.
as usual.
after that we had our "class ouyin" thingy.
but this time there was only me and ros.and the rest are the guys.
haha.
didn't noe that guys shop as long long as girls too until today.haha
guohao and wee leong felt freakin rich today cause one of them got his winnigs and the other jus recieved his pay.
so it was like wth.
they spent without thinkin.
like buyin a 79.00 belt and 65.00 on a wallet.
madness.
not because they felt they really needed it but because they tempted to.
haha.

i need to get formal wear!!

haha.yea.
and i saw this jeans that i really like today!!
but its like 129.00!
not tat rich to get it man.
hahaha

okay.iguess it jus here for now.
gotta go do my work now.hahah

2006-07-18T23:48:00.000-07:00

i'm BACKK:DD
been a busy busy weekend!
went for the computer graphic conference.
it was a three day thing.from fri-sun.
had to wait up early in the mornin to travel from my place to expo!:(
damn tired.
but it was all worth it.
really.
the talk was inspiring.
learnt many stuff.and understand more about this trade now.
haha.
ANDREW GORDON! CARLOS BAENO! AND AND..FENG ZHU!!
animator and concept designer from pixar and lucas film.
DAMN.
they are fucking pro.haha
ROBERT CHANG'S great too!
digital paintin that he do are just...OMGGGG! O.O

okay enough of CG overdrive.
haha.
i was so happy!
cause i saw darling at tiong on the second day of CG:))
was surprised!!hehh:))
i love my DARLING!!!
and its our third month anni todaYY:))
(but actually should be seventh month..heh..)

i think i'm fallin ill.
feel sickly.heh.
i'm bloody tireD!
only slept for three hours last night.and the few nights before slept late woke up early.
-YAWNNSS-

gil jus sent me this song!
nice!!
i like:))

MATCHBOOK ROMANCE
she'll never understand:)

leave a message on your phone
just to find out you're not home
keeping up with you is something
i could never do
and i know something's wrong
cause you've been gone too long
a fucking waste of my time is all that you've become
if i can't be the guy that you've always wanted me to be
if i can't say the words that you always wanted me to say
if i fall in the end, will you be holding on to me?
because you, you said you'd never leave me
the choice is up to you
to find out what to do
to let it go or keep kicking me to the side
i'm getting tired of your shit
and i can't deal with it
i gave up giving in, and now it's time to say goodbye
if i can't be the guy that you've always wanted me to be
if i can't say the words that you always wanted me to say
if i fall in the end, will you be holding on to me?
because you, you said you'd never leave me
stay with me...if i can't be the guy that you've always wanted me to be
if i can't say the words that you always wanted me to say
if i fall in the end, will you be holding on to me?
because you, you said you'd never leave
you, you said you'd never leave
you, you said you'd never leave me

2006-07-13T00:30:00.000-07:00

okie dokie!
CG OVERDRIVE tomoro!!:)
BAYBEATSS!!!!:))

was tryin from 8 to 5pm today.
like wth.
tired!
haha.
in between had lec and a talk by SCOTT CAPEL!!!!
haha.his my IDOL!!!
don't noe who is he.
his's the guy who did the incredibles!!
most recent movie.
his workin on the upcomin pixar anime,totouille.i think its spelt like that.
haha.
must catch that movie!!!heh.
PIXAR!!!!!
LUCAS FILM!!!!!!!
my dream companyy!!
heh.

went to bugis for dinner with tan yaw,cheow and ros.
gossip again lah.
haha.it was the four of us again.
heh.

PAUL TWOHILL!!!
superman!!
that song is stuck in my head now.heh:))

I can’t stand to fly I’m not that naive I’m just out to find The better part of me I’m more than a bird…I’m more than a planeMore than some pretty face beside a trainIt’s not easy to be me Wish that I could cryFall upon my kneesFind a way to lieAbout a home I’ll never see It may sound absurd…but don’t be naiveEven Heroes have the right to bleedI may be disturbed…but won’t you concedeEven Heroes have the right to dreams It’not easy to be me Up, up and away…away from meWell it’s all right…You can all sleep sound tonightI’m not crazy…or anything… I can’t stand to fly I’m not that naiveMen weren’t meant to rideWith clouds between their knees I’m only a man in a silly red sheetDigging for kryptonite on this one way streetOnly a man in a funny red sheet Looking for special things inside of me inside of me ...... inside of me ...(x2)I’m only a man in a funny red sheetI’m only a man looking for his dreamI’m only a man in a funny red sheetIt’s not easy ... wu.. hoo.. hoo..It’s not easy to be me...

lazy to seperate it.heh.

2006-07-12T11:31:00.000-07:00

WTH.
i think i sucks at usin corel painter.
i jus failed part one of my assignment even though i spent two nights sleepin duper late.
sian.
shall slack less and do more work!!
syarah is like improvin so fast.
not fair.
haha.
she slack as much as i do
hahaha

actually,
i have nothin much to blog.
lookin forward for cg overdrive and baybeats2006!!!:DD

syarah rocks!:)

2006-07-10T23:39:00.000-07:00

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Here's a little more about the event.
Remember VAUNT? this will be an even biggerevent, but with more space and more things to do.
A Night Market + A Party AreaThe last event to be held at sentosa before MOS buys it up.
This means no more Zouk Out!
So, this is your last chance to party zoukout styleon the beach!
And, when you get tired, just chillout at the bazaar, where ALL KINDS OF STALLS will be set up!
Carnival style, any style!
Interested in selling tickets? commission will bedefinately more than what you imagine.
Just drop me a message.
Also, if you'd like to set up a stall at the bazaar, message me.
Thank You
message me if you're interested.natalie 91731673

2006-07-10T08:08:00.000-07:00

taada!!:D
hahaha.
okay.slept at 5 am ytd.
was watchin soccer.and doin my assignment at the same time.
heh.
well.
though i sprnt like one and a half day doin my assignment.
i still think that my finished work sucks!!.
:(
haha.
nevermind.i shall strike for the best next time!:))

had to present for design fund today.
i think i did really bad for the presentation.
super short presentation.hahaha.
nevermind.
more practice and it will be jus fine.hehheh.

can't catch pirates of the caribbean this thurs alr!!:(
have to rush to do vastr:(

gottsa rush for colour theory tonight.
and do more concept sketches for codid.
and have to reach school at seven tomoro!
to do drawin ONE.
so i guess i left wit..1,2..2hours of sleep??
hahaha.
weird.i actually feel more awake when i have lesser sleep.HAHAHA.
guess.i'm jus gettin use to sleepin for only a few hours.hehe.

wad i'm lookin forward for this week will be 1)CG overdrive!!
2) BAYBEATS2006:)
3)hopefully catchin pirates of the caribbean?
okay.gotta start doin my work now!
poof!i'm off:)

2006-07-07T00:51:00.000-07:00

i could feel that i'm losin you.
wad do i do?

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!
that's wad i really feel like doin.
S C R E A M!!!
cause its just pilin up.
everything.
its not gettin any lighter.

well.
went out wit np juniors today.
i didn't go for dental appt cause school ended late.
met them at far east then walked back to cine where i had my lunch at galilee and friends while they celebrate jieyi's b'day.
walked to heeren to take neos.
was at mini toon.
saw this tigger which i really like!!!!!!!
hahah.only one left there.
but i didn't get it though it was only ten bucks.
cause i tot i should spent on my bag first.
but i really really like it!!
so cute lah!
was huggin it like some small kid.
didn't wanna let it go.jus stood there and hug it.
until my juniors have to pull it away.hahahah.
hmm.hope its still there.
and i shall get it.

2006-07-06T00:40:00.000-07:00

NO LECTURE today:)
well.
still went back to school to see gail for design funds.
then left for art friend and bugis wit ros.
syarah went back cause she had guitar prac later.
tot of gettin my back today.
but didn't.
cause nothin caught my eye today.heh.
like wad you say.
the strap of my bag jus snap while i was walkin from tiong to my mum shop.
embrassin.
luckily only this old man saw.
hah.
i guess you'll laugh your ass off if you saw wad happened.
hmm.
hah.

gotta get present for jieyi tomoro.
since i'm meetin da girls tomoro.

SIAN X(

2006-07-05T01:07:00.000-07:00

school ends early just like the usual wednesday.
but today time seem to fly to me.
haha.
weird.

had lunch in school.
had sandwich,a cup of soda and shared half of the choc puff wit syarah.
and then left for home.
i actually intend to go home and do my work.
but when i reached home.
my mum called me.
told me to go down to my aunt place to help.
cause most of my aunties are sick.
baby's sis havin fever too.
my eldest aunt is really really really sick.
my mum say if she con't to be that sick.
she may leave anytime.
sigh.
help to baby sit and do my design fund sketches.
then didn't have time to do others.
sian!

syarah wrote a song.
and she told me that it reminds her of me and my darlin.
it was a sad song.haha.
well.

first song i heard on the radio when i got in the car today was the song you sent me.
hen xiang shou.
haven cried for a long time.hah.
and guess wad?
i started tearin.
emo,i guess.
wadever lah.
who cares anyway.

2006-07-04T00:21:00.000-07:00

didn't do much for codid today.
gwen lee was late.
so only had consultation for "made in asia".

finally went to grassroot to have our lunch.
food at naked fish shoppe restaurant SUCKS!
never will i step in there again.
luckily,everything only cost seven fifty.
haha.
was late for lecture,but yet not really late.
cause went we got there,they haven started.yuppp.hah

went to meet nat and chuanny in twn!!!:DDD
haven met up for ages:)
hahah.
talked over dinner at pastamania:))
i seriously love the passionfruit italian soda!!!!:DDD
talked bout many stfuff.
had a great time catchin up:)
went to took neos:)
as usual.we were as retarded as before.heh.
hang around town till 9 then went home.hah
totally feel like nat's girlfriend today lah.
help her carry all her stuff and all.
haha.
i love nat.
ilove chuan.
they're the BEST to me.
heh.
well.
sianx.
gtg.
(still waitin for your return.)

2006-07-03T23:17:00.000-07:00

i so hate myself now!
so EMO!
each time the sunsets.
there i go.feelin all so EMO.
don't wanna go home.don't wanna be alone.
jus wanna hang ard wit my friends.
accompany syarah till seven.
she tot me to play the first two lines of blues's best in me.
yeay!
haha.
talked about stuff.
mostly i'm the one talkin.haha.
well.
i really wonder when did i put you out of my mind.
the answer was NEVER.
its like every min and every sec.
non stop.
sometimes i jus get tired but still thinkin of you never stops.
first person to come into my mind in the mornin was you.
at night,i only dream bout you.
afternoon/evenin,day dream bout you.
gosh!
this obession is horrible.
its jus bad.
i guess no matter how hard i try to protect myself.
i still fall as deep.
i will still hurt as bad as before.
or maybe worst.
-sigh-
but still.
i'm here waitin.
stilll not givin up.

2006-07-02T22:21:00.000-07:00

as usual went for work today.
wasn't freaking busy.so it was alright.haha.
paul came an hour before i left.
as usual we crapped alot.heh.
we were both upset that ENGLAND lost.-weeps-
okay.i wasn't really that upset lah.cause i didnt bet.haha.but he did.
and i wasn't really supportin any team.haha.

today's a sucky sunday:(
early in the mornin my parents have to quarrel.
then all the drama mama thing repeat itself over and over.
kinda sick of it that i'm sad to say,can't be bothered.
was sent to work almost an hour early cause they were pissed at each other.
lik wth!
wadever.
things just ain't gg fine between me and ...
like fucked up.
everything seems to be repeatin itself over and over.
ahhhHHH.fuck lah.

okay.better control myself and not let all this affect my work.
gotta complete my work before i start to get emo.
bye.

everything i see now seems to be only in black and grey.

2006-07-01T00:28:00.000-07:00

everything seems to go in the wrong direction.
you say we're driftin.
i'm tryin hard to get us back.
but you seem to push me away.

do you still remember all those msges you sent me?
your promises,your assurance?

18-04-2006
06:52
i won't,i promise.i won't break my promise either.i love you..........

21-04-2006
22:24
i don't know how to assure you but,i'll never leave you this time.let them say all they want.

28-04-2006
00:29
i'm never gonna say goodbye,cause i never wanna see you cry,i swore to you my love will remain,and i swear it all over again and i.i'm never gonna treat you bad.cause i never wanna see you sad.i swore to share your joy and your pain,and i'd swear it all over again....

30-04-2006
13:15
and i,know that you won't break my heart.and i,know that we won't ever part.its time,time for us to settle down.and i,wanna be with you forever....

30-04-2006
17:38
........haha,wo dang ran zhi dao.i'm not the childish me anm.i'll treasure you from now and i won't leave you.

all these.do you still remember??
everytime i'm down,all i have to do is look into my inbox.and evey single of your msges will jus take away all the bad feelins i felt.

you noe that i'm always here for you.whether you left and then come back,i'm always here.still lovin you as much.
remember wad you say when you asked me back?
you say that the past won't repeat.but why is it repeatin itself??
GIRL,do you remember????

2006-06-30T00:13:00.000-07:00

alrights.
went out with ros,theo,tan yau,ni zhen and cheow.
walked ard at far east,then heeren,then cine:)
left town at 730.

actually.was kinda selfish lah.
tutorial ended at 130.
didn't wanna go home that early.
didn't wanna be alone.
start thinkin.then start feelin blue again.
dragged the rest out.hahah.
cheow and tan yau was kind to follow.
they wanted to go home actually.
hahaha.

I wanted you to know I love the way you laugh
I wanna hold you high and steal your pain away
I keep your photograph; I know it serves me well
I wanna hold you high and steal your pain
‘Cause I’m broken when I’m open
And I don’t feel like I am strong enough
‘Cause I’m broken when I’m lonesome
And I don’t feel light when you’re gone away
The worst is over now and we can breathe again
I wanna hold you high, you steal my pain away
There’s so much left to learn, and no one left to fight
I wanna hold you high and steal your pain
‘Cause I’m broken when I’m open
And I don’t feel like I am strong enough
‘Cause I’m broken when I’m lonesome
And I don’t feel right when you’re gone away
‘Cause I’m broken when I’m open
And I don’t feel like I am strong enough
‘Cause I’m broken when I’m lonesome
And I don’t feel light when you’re gone away

2006-06-29T06:57:00.000-07:00

shall post zouk pics here.cause i can't upload it onto friendster.for dunno wad reason:(

yupp.the rest wit nat and all.heh.
well.shall also upload my my haunted house work here.i think my gruop and i did it quite well:)

2006-06-29T06:21:00.000-07:00

had guitar lessons today:)
it was alright.
syarah make a good teacher.haha.
we had our lesson at this secret hang out of ours.
but our peace was broken when the rest of the guys came.
we like ARGHH!
stayed till three plus then we all left.
syarah,me,ros,gilbert,guohao and wee leong went to toa payoh to play arcarde and pool!!:))
the arcarde at toa payoh is damn quiet.there were only us.felt like we own the whole place.hahah.
played percussions and some stupid army thingy which the gun didn't work properly.STUPID GAME.
then went to play POOL:)
okay.i must admit i suck at it.hahaha.
wee leong was like damn pro lah.
we split into teams then guohao came up with his usual stupid idea of havin the losers to pay for the game.
i was in wee leong group with ros.
though we leong is like damn pro.we eventually lost.hha.
but the guys decided to pay for us instead.cause when we wanted to return them our share of money,they didn't want it back.hahaha.
left at around six plus.
all went back to rush PD8.which i have alr finish.
tot i could slack a little.but NO!
still have other assignment to finish:(

us at the "secret" hangout.LOL

2006-06-25T22:58:00.000-07:00

okay.
school's starting tomoro.
which is actually a good thing.
cause the workload would not be as much as the ones given during hols.

well.
lets talk bout yesterday.
hmm.
where was i?
okay.
stayed at home till 3 plus.
forced myself to wake up at 8.
but still lay on the bed till 10.
haha:D
got off the bed.
shower and everything.
was already 11 plus.
haha.told myself that i have to complete PD 8.
but i only did 1/3 of it.
how pathectic??
haha.was slackin big time alright.haha:)
well.left the house for sentosa.
not to play and have fun.
went there to take pics for one of my assignnment.
went there alone.heh.
well.
like i always say.
sometimes doin stuff alone really makes you look around and observe the surroundin.haha.
haven been to sentosa for ages.
so i felt lost when i got there.haha.
kinda embarassin that i'm local and yet not really familiar wit one of singapore's popular attractions.haha.
passed by a few tourist who were as lost as me and were like askin for directions.
i was so prayin hard that they won't asked me cause i won't be of much help.hahaha.
took pics of the merlion.
then walked to the ferry terminal.
took pics of it.
from there,took pics of the cable cars too.
wanted to walk to the underwater world.
but decided not to since it was gettin late and that i've finished takin wad i wanted.
before i left sentosa.the sun was settin alr.
first person that i tot of was YOU.my silly girl.hahah.
lets go sentosa someday,shall we?haha

anyway.went to town.wanted to get tamagochi for YOU.but was all out of stock.have to wait till sep then.hahha
hang around till nine.
watched some street band performance.
this local band called heatwave.
they have a really good drummer.
stayed over at my aunt place.
didn't really have a good night sleep cause my baby nicece was cryin all the time.
woke up a few times to tap her to sleep.

TODAy.
worked.
the went back to my aunt's place to celebrate my cousin's birthday.
haha.nothingelse.hahaa.

2006-06-24T11:43:00.000-07:00

how come there's always never ending of HOMEWORK???!!
sick of doin it.
arghhhhh!
:(

2006-06-23T20:36:00.000-07:00

wasn't MIA-ing.
haha.
comp crashed and all.so couldn't come online.hahaa.
my birthday was fun:)
went to ZOUK.
i really love
NAT
CHUAN
RACH
JANET
MAYSI
STACE
DANICA

you all are the best!!!!!!!!:DD
i noe that i can count on you all if anything happens:)
i miss all of you:)
i love all the present that you all gave me:)))
the pink and black stripe shirt,boxers,cap,and cookies!!!
LOVE IT ALL!:)
hahaha.
thanks alot!!!!!!!!
must meet up soon again!:DD

you're all that i wanted.

2006-06-17T01:38:00.000-07:00

went to my cousin's place for housinwarmin today.
was freakin bored!stayed at home the whole day and then straight to my cousin's place.
did my homework.and found out still got many more to complete.
but darn it.
i'm fuckin lazy to do any of them
hahaha.
HAPPY SECOND MONTH ANNI TO YOU AND ME!!!!!!:)
i love you,dar.
alot alot alot alot!!:))
hehe.
super crazy over YOU,my sweetiepie.
and everyone knows that.hahaha

girl,each time you think your feelin"s fadin.
try to think back how much we go through to get to today.
you told me that this time your love will be strong.
and i hope its still is.

2006-06-16T23:28:00.000-07:00

whoo!
37 mins more before i'm officially EIGHTEEN!!
hahaha.
shall sing a birthday sng for myself.
happy birthday to ME:)
happy birthday to me:) happy birthday happy birthday!
happy birthday to MEEEEEEE!!!
hahahahahaha.
rights.
must be crazyy
haha
well.
anyway.if you're pissed or angry and want to vent it out by scoldin someone.
man.you should just go to this blog and flood her bloody tagboard!muahahaha!!
she shall get it for scoldin my dar!
http://glitterdoll-.blogspot.com/
hhahaha!!
okay.i feel so MEANN!!
haha.

2006-06-16T21:05:00.000-07:00

feel better now.i think.
maybe its because i'm tellin myself not to bother so much.
and that i've askin myself to finish my work asap.
have to do more colour scheme for my desfd.
mon have to go meet ms gail.
tue have to discuss codid.
and start on it asap.
have to start doin drawin pd 8 and 11 soon.
watch dvd for colour theory on thurs\fri.
have to start doin vast!!!gosh
which remind me that i have to go back to sch to obtain the files.
tomoro.
i'll be officially eighteen.
yea.so.
argh!wadever.
goin off!

2006-06-15T22:16:00.000-07:00

damn it!
i seriously hate my life now.
everything seems to be goin wrongggg!!
quarrelled with my mum.
she's damn fuckin pissed with me and all.
but i already apologised.
yea.maybe like wad dar say.
not everytime say sorry can alr.
but i'm like changin alr.
called mum to tell her where i've been and all today.
like wtf!
wad she wans from me now?
can't stand it anymore.
i feel like i'm so torn.
this week been bad.
and she have to make it even worst.
everything i do seems wrong wrong wrong!
i'm seriously fuckin tired with all this.
nat,i feel that sooner or later i can't take it anymore.
great isn't it.
my mum say she's gona help out some friend at some pub.
not comin home on certain days and all.
indirectly caused by ME.
mum says she not gona bother bout me anymore.
if i met wit and accident or wadever nots.
she's not gona claim my body and all.
i noe she meant wad she say.
some kind soul.please help claim my body if ever any of the incidents happen.
like wth!

i'mfeellikeigonabreakdownsoon.

but still.
gotta thanks yokeleng,yuqi,nani,bridget,stefi,lifang and jeslyn today for the cake.
hahha.
you guys were great!haha

gotta THANK saori!!
she really made my day.
sent me gifts all the way from japan!!
hahaha.
real surprisedddd!!!
thank so much!!!:DD

2006-06-14T22:42:00.001-07:00

haha.
wad a day today!
first thing in da mornin quarrelled with my mum.i admit its kinda my fault.but i apologized alr.so its whether she wans to accept that apology or not.
ARGGHHHHHHHHH!
damn!!
:((((
wad the fuck lah!!
why is it all happenin on this week??-sigh-
nevermind.
just went to read some bitch blog.
rather humourous.
haha:D
the royalties?!
please be more original.hahaha
and like so childish lah.
"i've been askin who are you and if you don't answer me i'll block you from taggin."
HAHAHAHAHA.
like is tat all you can do?
hahahah.
gosh.i'm bein mean again.
but i guess once in a while is fine.hahahha.
LOL.
well.gotta go!:))

2006-06-14T22:42:00.000-07:00

2006-06-13T00:11:00.000-07:00

went our with poly friends today.haha.travelled mostly by foot.haha.like wth.hahawalked to SAM then walked to citylink then to marina then to esplande then back to bugis.HAHAHH.can really lose weight alr.hahha.took pics for my homework,played arcarde,and did SHOPPIN!!hahahha.happy with wad i got.hahah.but i feel so broke now cause i like spent $102!! on two books.damn big investment.this artist must be earnin like crazzzyyy.hahahha.
syarah and ros are like so kind!they're gona send me something for my birthday.haha.but i don't really like surprises.maybe cause i don't really noe how to react to it.hahhaha.
but somehow.this week feel so sucky.been quarrellin wit my mum more often than usual.like COLD war.arg!wadever.hahha.don't care lah.hahhaah
well.POOFF!!i'm gone.haha

2006-06-12T22:32:00.000-07:00

fuckin bored!haha.at home now.but will be goin out later to meet ppl from nyp.gotta take pics pf spore attractions.woah!how interestin is tat?hahahha.LOL.
syarah wanted to catch a movie today.but she decided to strike out that idea.hmm.like wth!!haha.i feel like goin for a movie marathon!haha.but not rich enough to do that.haha.gotta save up for someother stuff.heh.
so kind of syarah.she was like askin me,"hey,we still haven decide on how to celebrate your birthday.anyplans?"
hahahhah.but i really don't have one.and i guess you guys don't have to really plan anything lah.hahahha.thanks anyway.haha.
my birthday wish is a very simple one.and i'm not gona say it out cause it won't come true if i say it.heh.well.i guess my girlfriends would noe wad is it.hahha.
okay.
signinoff:))

2006-06-11T22:41:00.000-07:00

its HOLIDAYYYYYYYY!!!hahah.woooOOOhoooOO!!hahaha:))
someone say my blog's skin is NICE:))heh.i'm happy.hahah.
have to finish my apple assignment.will be doin it later.AIRBRUSH is like so cool!!haha.
i shall spend more time to figure out more uses of corel painter.heh.
loaded with assignmentsssSS.need to do plenty of researchsss,drawingg.planninnn,colouriinnnggg.i don't have the mood to start on any.but i got to dragggggggggggg myself to do it.hehehhe.don't want to do last minute work.hahah.

will i be goin anywhere tomoro??hmm.doubt so.no plans.hmm.haha.
can totally forsee that my birthday this year would be the worst one.six days more to my birthday.and i don't really feel excited or anything.i don't even feel happy.
like so many things had happen.and nothin seems to be able to cheer me up.wadever lah.and to add on to it.my mom kept questionin me on where i'll be gg and why do i have to stay over at whoever place.like for goodness sake.i'm eighten alr.jus let me do things that i wanna do can?and stop kickin a big fuss over small things lah!!can't stand it!!

rights.shall not whine any further.only make me feel worst onlyy.

2006-06-10T13:47:00.000-07:00

went to meet nat ytd.she burnt a hole in my pocket.i was like late.so i have to treat her lunch.hahaha.never mind lah.haven met up in a while.so its okay.bought a shirt and a tie:))really happy wit wad i've got.heh.nat bought like three t shirts and a handbad.gosh!she can really spend.hahaha.

hmm.today.wad a day.hah.laugh?i'm still able to laugh.hah.i'm losin you,am i right?
totally failure,ain't i?can actually lose the same person so many times.such a failure!i'm not a person who treat love like a game.when i love someone.i would love with a my heart.you should noe.if i treat all this as a game.would i wait for so long?for you to return to me each time you leave?i love you.i really love you alot.alot.

words hit so hard.they turn my whole world upside.

2006-06-09T01:30:00.000-07:00

-thinkin bout alot of stuff-
SCHOOL.
perspective drawin!6A4 sketches.damn!i totally sucks at this!!!!!!!FUCK LAH!
went to town wit guohao,wee leong,tan yaw,cheow hong,gilbert and eunice after lecture.had lunch at PS.stupid guohao and wee leong actually took like 20 mins to queue for their fuckin food!by the time they came back we've alr finished our food.STUPID LAH!
walked to paragon to eat ice cream!like wth!stupid guohao just sat on the steps outside paragon to eat.and that's wad he meant by lookin for somewhere to sit.his girlfriend must be damn poor thing!haha.
they were lookin at chio bu everywhere they go.WTH!
then all went home to do perspective drawin which is fuckin due tomoro.
eunice and i went back to do to do VASTR.stayed in school till eight.i love NYP at night.really quiet.PEACEFUL.really wished i could just stayed there to clear my thoughts for the whole night.
rushin pd #7 now.PERSPECTIVE.but do i look like i am really concentratin??hahah.wadever.
someone's suppose to talk to me after she upload her pics.but she just went offline.haha.okay.wadever.do wadever you wan.when you wanna talk to me.when you wanna msg me then do so.all up to you.

gosh!guess i'm really a totally failure.i always make you bored.to you.i'm just a lamer.to you.who am i??

I JUST WANNA DRINK TILL I DROPP!!!!!!!!!!

2006-06-07T23:40:00.004-07:00

its past eleven pm now.a sign that shows i'm not gona be able to sleep till two or maybe later.DESIGN FUNDAMENTALS assignment sketches!!due TOMORO:( didn't intend to do last min work.but who knowss.i had to redo two of my previous assignments!so fuck it!have to rush it now.i'm so in the slackin mood now.not concentrating fully!which is BAD!
just got back two exercises for comm skills.one's an A- and the other an A+.hah.i guess my english isn't that bad either.hahaha.okay.but i've got to say that i don't actually deserve the A+.haha.it was a pair work and the major marks came from the abstract that we had to do for our proposal.i din't actually tounch that.haha.syarah did it all.hahaha.credits goes to her.haha.well.she's so much stronger in her language.heheh.
talked to my dar on the phone just now.train that she was on was sooo noisy.could her wad she was sayin.so i kept huh-ring.sorry.i admit i've got hearin problems.hahaha.but i guess she's asleep now.cause she's not replyin my messages.sigh.
its weird how a person mind can work.you can be doin something while your brain is thinkin of so many other things.
NO MATTER WAD I DO,PART OF MY BRAIN"S THINKIN BOUT YOU!!:))
and as i type,i can feel my eyelids are geetin heavier.
since the start of school till now.i've never a day slept before eleven.that's how SICK is this course.never endin deadlines.never ending of sleepless nights:(
a path i chose.only to accept it.
okay.i better typin further.need to continue with my work.2/5 has already been done.three more to go:) JIAYOU!JIAYOU!JIAYOU!!:D
nights ,people;)

2006-06-07T23:40:00.002-07:00

2006-06-07T23:40:00.001-07:00

2006-06-07T23:40:00.000-07:00

2006-06-06T06:40:00.000-07:00

do you noe how much i miss you???miss you alot alot alot!
do you miss me too?
hmmm.wadever lah.

2006-06-06T05:39:00.000-07:00

okaysss!!haven blog for a long time.was really busy.
HOLIDAY is like FIVE days away!!!woohooooooo!!hahaha.
but although we need not go back to school,we still have tonnes of work to do.so there's like no diff!haha.wadever lah.
FOUR assignments!!!major ones!!all four deadlines are like so close to each other.GOSH!!someone save me?!
one good news toady!we have to design something which eventually we have to label it "made in asia".shoes,caps,bags,book,etc.ANYTHING!!hahahGREAT!i shall design shoessssssSS:)))))always wanted to do!!now its my chance:)heh.maybe shall design a cap too,that's only if i have time to do so.hahaha:DD
ms gwen lee says she may open a small booth to sell our work when everything's done.but i don't think i wanna sell mine.its like ONE and ONLY.wouldn't bear to sell it.hehheh.i would give it to that someone i love alot.hahahaha.i like ms gwen lee.she totally rocks!!haha.she's always so encouragin.haha.

A hundred days had made me older since the last time that
I saw your pretty face
A thousand lights had made me colder and
I don’t think I can look at this the same
But all the miles had separate
They disappeared now when
I’m dreaming of your face
I’m here without you baby
but your still on my lonely mind
I think about you baby and I dream about you all the time
I’m here without you baby
but your still with me in my dreams
And tonight
it’s only you and me
The miles just keep rolling as the people leave their way to say hello
I hear this life is overrated but
I hope it gets better as we go
I’m here without you baby
but your still on my lonely mind
I think about you baby and I dream about you all the time
I’m here without you baby
but your still with me in my dreams
And tonight girl
it’s only you and me
Everything I know, and anywhere I go
it gets hard
but it won’t take away my love
And when the last one falls, when it’s all said and done
it get hard but it won’t take away my love
I’m here without you baby
but your still on my lonely mind
I think about you baby and I dream about you all the time
I’m here without you baby
but your still with me in my dreams
And tonight girl
it’s only you and me

HERE WITHOUT YOU by 3 doors down:)
PAUL TWOHILL CHRISTOPHER ROCKSSSSSS!!!!:DD

cosplay GOTHIC soon!!:))hahaha.GOTHIC PUNKKKKK:DD

okay.gotta go do my work now.hehh.byyeee:))

2006-06-02T20:33:00.000-07:00

school was less busy this week.back to normal.but the following week is goin to be worst.4 major assignment!all due mostly after hols.which means my hols is gone:((tell me.how do you help to get someone's feelin back?i'm desperate to noe.
feel so sucky.could practically feel that everything's grey.
darling,do you still remember how you use to say its just the both of us?
do remember that you say you would love me till the end of time?
do you remember saying how much you miss me??
let's work problems out,shall we?
don't just walk away like you use to.
can't afford to lose you!

2006-05-31T06:28:00.001-07:00

so fucked up with things that are happenin!!like wad the fuck.wad the hell did i do certain things.why didn't i think before i say things?fuck it! all screwed. like so not in the mood for ANYTHING at all:(( jus wanna listen to my mp3 and sleep. don't wish to talk to anyone.not in da mood to be some retard to entertaint ppl. DARLIN,I'M SORRY!! please don't ignore me:(((

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ARGGGGGGGGGGGGGG!!!!!!!!!
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2006-05-31T06:28:00.000-07:00

2006-05-24T08:34:00.000-07:00

its been a long time since i blogged.hahha.really busy!!deadlines to meet.sigh!
i'm suppose to be rushin my work and yet i'm here bloggin.hahaha.wadever.i just need a break from work and more WORK!!

hehe.me at FOOD JUNCTION in NYP.hahah.STRIPESS!!!i love this shirt.hhahha:D

that's syarah and me.tutorial for design fundamentals.

eunice and me!!

eunice and syarah!!

roslind and the NERDS.hahaha.okay. i'm so mean!!

FOOD J.the only air conditioned canteen.spent lots of time there.hehe.

my favourite drink at nyp now.haha.

SYARAH!!!my guitar teacher.she's super pro at it.haha.both of us love music.ao we have lots to talk about.hahaha.

and of course!!that's me!!!!:))with my checkered cap.one of my fav.like duhh!!cause i only have one cap at home.HAHAHA>

that's ME againn!!hahaha.in my long sleeve stripe shirt.at tutorial for design fund againn:)))SAY CHEESE!!

HIDINGG!!haahahha.

the three of US:)) SMILE!!

US again!!:))more SMILESS!!

aunty roslind and me!!!hahah.okay.i'm bein mean again!she's just a year older than me.hahaha.

okay!!that's all folks.gotta go.upload again soon:)))

2006-05-13T17:05:00.000-07:00

YESTERDAY.was SO SO SO FUN!!!!!!hahaha.everyone was like in uniform.so cool.rach and janet totally look like they were back in secondary school.hahha.it was quite borin at first.but we startin talkin.cleared misunderstandins.then everything were so fun.took plenty of pics.like non stop.especially rachel mak wan shi.hahaha.kept video-ing everyone.we took cool cool pics too.hahha.we sat by the pool side the whole party.haha.it was more coolin there lah.but lots of mosquitos.hahaha.but lucky me,i didn't get bitten.haha.DANICA TOH!you should seriously stop faggin.hahaha.see.chuan and me are good examples:))
we had drama to watch too.haha.this guy who likes nat was like actin drunk lah.so fake.and the stupid-est thing he did was to fag infront of nat's mum.how clever is that?aunty hates smokers lah!haha.the way he acted that he was drunk was damn funny!!!!!!!hahaha.stan,dan and i couldn't stop makin fun of him.it was soo soo obvious that he was not drunk.and he totally spoil the party lah.luckily,it was endin alr.hahaha.
nat's speech was like soo funny.but sweet.haha.thanks nat.hahha.
cabbed back after the party.reached home at ard 1215.haha.

wish you were there at the party too.
then it'll be more fun:))
love you,love you,love you.

2006-05-08T06:38:00.000-07:00

HELLO:)
school's been fine.but still homework is like PLENTY and PLENTY!!!:(
finish with one and again other one to complete.sigh!it goes on and on and on.
gotta get the hang of it man!!
haven been sleepin early since last work.slept at three last night.hahaha.but that's an exception.hehh:))
lack of sleep will only lead to stonin.hahahaha.i've been stonin in school today.half the time.my friends tot i was sick of something.hahaha.
shall try to sleep early tonight.hehe.
school starts at 12 tomoro.hehe.that means i can sleep till later.yeay!finally.
okay.i think the guys in my class are up to no good again.guohou have been sayin hi to me each time he sees me.that's weird .better send a spy to check wad they are up to.HAHAHA.kinda sick with the gilbert thingy.startin to find it annoyin!!!hahaha.well.i guess everything will tone down soon.hehh.

miss you to bits and pieces.
why ain't you replyin me??
oh wells,guess you're busy.

gtg go!! WORK TO BE DONE!!!hehh.seeya:))

2006-05-04T21:45:00.000-07:00

KBOX was fun!!!!haha.
sixteen ppl from our class went to kbox today.hahahait was super duper fun:))the room was super biggg and the screen was huge.hahaha.so COOL!!!it was nothing but fun.haha.even the nerds went and they sang.but the songs were oldies.hahaa.well.at least they sang.hahaha.
oooOO.and tian yuan can sing so so so so well!!!like some pro!gosh!she's my new idol.HAHAH:DDshe have just empolyed me to be her manager.hahaha.she got a mixture of angela's,fish leong,evonne,and even laura's voice.MAN!she just simply talented!!hahaha
sang from 2 to 7 ,the usuals.haha.drank vodka.but only one cup.so..no kick.hahaha.
rushin work now.have to hand in tomoro.hahaha.
well.20th.is the day i can't wait for it to come.hahaha.not forgettin the 12th.nat's b'dae.haha.it'll be kbox on the 20th.hahaha.and den long john.maybe movie.hahaha.yeayyy!!hahaahah.can't wait.

2006-05-01T23:18:00.000-07:00

KA BOOM!!
haahha.okay.just bein crazzyy.
still trying to finish my work.hahaha.
never ending:((
my eyes are swollen.think i've got eye in fection:((
hurts when i BLINK.
and the swell is like gettin worse.
need to see a doc tomoro.hahah.
well.nothin much to blog about.
so off i go.
BYEEE:))

i wanna know
who ever told you i was letting go
of the only joy that i have ever known
girl they're lying
just look around
and all of the people that we used to know
have just given up they wanna let it go
but we're still trying
so you should know this love we share was never made to die
i'm glad we're on this one way street just you and i
just you and i
i'm never gonna say goodbye
cos i never wanna see you cry
i swore to you my love would remain
and i swear it all over again and i
i'm never gonna treat you bad
cos i never wanna see you sad
i swore to share your joy and your pain
and i swear it all over again
all over again

2006-04-29T18:33:00.000-07:00

like wad the fuck have i done wrong??!!
so wad now?!am i suppose to noe wad's gg on ard each and every one in the family????
i've jus got into poly.still adjustin to settle down and my fuckin sis have to call me today not to find out if i'm still copin but to ask me quetion on whether i noe wad's wrong wit whoever.
and when i sy i don't noe.i get scolded for that.like wad.i don't go down to my mum shop as often and how am i suppose to noe wad's goin on.wad?do i have to ask her?ask wad?for god sake.if she have problems.tell me straight lah!!!!like how am i suppose to noe????!!!!
then my younger sis.have to tell my sis abt all this fuckin problems when she see her online.
like FUCK lah.i haven been gg out as often.spent most of my time in school.if not home.and how am i suppose to noe wad's their fuckin problrm if they don't tell me????!!!
by the time they fuckin come home.like how many hours do we have left to talk???don't i have work to do.don't i have my own problems????!!
i don't see my elder sis caring and askin so much about the family when she's in poly.so why have it always be me to be stuck wit all this fuckin shit????
she's always out till late and no one seem to ask much.and den for me.i have to tell where i'm gg,gg wit who,till wad time.
like fuck it!!!i'm bloody hell EIGHTEEN already!!!
can't i have a little fun in my fuckin life??

FUCK it!!!hate my fuckin life!!!

2006-04-28T23:56:00.000-07:00

HOMEWORK!HOMEWORK!and more HOMEWORK!!!!
damn it.work load is pilin up UP and UP!:((
re paint colour wheel.
paint the range of tint colours.
redraw my 4A4 sze sketches.
PD#1
PD#2
advertistment collage
complete exercise on design fundamentals,LINES.
ARGHH!!
hahha.wadever...
went for the fusion thigy today.
my seniors are really good.
their work are like so FINE.
in two years time,its our turn to exhibit our work.
will i be as good by then.
-worries-
i don't think i'm even up to standard.
like sigh.
stressed out after seein those works.there are like soooo good.
if by that time.i still can't reach that standard.i can just DIE.hahahha
went down to town after that.walked around town.
then met nat.shopped wit her till seven then left her in rach's care.hahha.
went back to my mum shop.and fell asleep on the chair.
was tired lah.
okay.gtg.
sleep.i need sleep:))

TODAY"S A GREAT DAY!!!!!!!!!:DDD

2006-04-26T23:58:00.000-07:00

rights.haven blogged for days.BUSYY!!
hahaha.
DMD isn't that relaxing either.
loads and loads of homework.and they're like pilin up.
like fuckshit!!!!
i have to redo my COLOUR WHEEL!!!
damn it!!
ah!..
wadever.
haha
meetin nat,dan,maysi,rach and shuyu on sat!!
maybe goin to club.
hahaha.
okay
gtg.
tataS!!!

FULL OF MISSES:((

2006-04-23T00:09:00.000-07:00

was damn pissed wit my aunt today.cause she spilled paint on me!!!new clothes some more.fuckshit lah.hahha.ahhh.nevermind lahs.haha
still got homework to complete.like HELLLLLLL!!!
think i'll have to go to school like half an hour early tomoro.cause i need to get colour papers and compass.and then i need to cut out those shapes that i haven done yet.
school is like from 9 to 6 tomor.oh man!!whole day affair.arghh!i still need to stay back to do my e learnin stuff.like shit lah.that means i'll be home only at 7 or 8.MAN!!!!
never mind.guess i'll soon get use to this hectic life.hahaha
well.gtg!seeya:)
tata..

cause you're bittersweet
you knocks me off of my feet
and I can't help myself
i don't want anyone else
you're a mystery
you're too much for me
but I keep coming back for more
oh, I keep coming back for more
you're just the girl I'm looking for

2006-04-21T01:05:00.000-07:00

school was super early today.at 8.
only had four hours of sleep.-YAWNS-
could barely keep myself awake durin lectures.hahaha.
tan yaw actually slept through the whole lecture.haha.and i have to wake him up when it ended.hahaa.STUPID sia.hahaha.
but drawing lectures are seriously B O R I N G.hahahaha.
and i have to spent evey FRIDAY like that.shit!!.
hahaha.
was drawing tutorial after that.we did drawing.very basic drawings.which are like still life.
NO MANGA!!NO COLOURSSS!!for this whole year.damn.my drawing skill bound to improve after one year.hahaha.pure drawing with pencil and charcoal.shadings to add effect.haha.not bad.at least its not as borin.hahaha.
i'll never want to go to the canteen which is nearest to the SCHOOL OF IT(SIT).
the food there is like S H I T T!!!!!!!!!! horrible lah!!!hahaha.
food junction and the fast food canteen near SCHOOL OF DESIGN(SDN) is the best!!!!:))
when to save lecture notes form school PC.then went down to tiong.then to school.well.totally lifeless today.cause i'm super tired.hahaha.my eyes are closin as i type.hahaha.haha.
soo.i'm off.tata!:)
but before that.
a song for YOU!:)

you and I
we never had it easy baby
we had to work so hard
and everytime it feels like we're gonna make it
that's when it falls apart, but
Oooooooohoo

baby I'll take my chances with you

Oooooooohoo
baby I'll take my chances with you
every night I think about the mistakes i've made
i try to change my ways(Nothing's gonna change my ways)
and I don't mind all the little games we play
and all the foolish things you say,cause
Oooooooohoo
baby I'll take my chances with you
that's what I'm gonna do
Oooooooohoo
baby I'll take my chances with you

love is what you make it

so give it one more try
cause I get so down
when you're not around
i just can't take it all
you and I
we never had it easy baby
we've both been hurt before(Both been hurt before)
and only time will tell us if we're gonna make it
there's no way to be sure, but
Oooooooohoo
baby I'll take my chances with you
that's what I'm gonna do
Oooooooohoo
baby I'll take my chances with you
you know it's true
Oooooooohoo
baby I'll take my chances with you
that's what I'm gonna do
Oooooooohoo
baby I'll take my chances
i'll take my chances
with you

2006-04-19T22:41:00.000-07:00

school started at 9 today.
had comunication skills tutorials.early in da mornin.and it was soooOo borin!!almost fall asleep lah.had to climb so many flights of stairs to get there.mornin exercise sia.hahaha.school of IT had one pathetically ONE lift.and its dammn slow.so the stairs was the only choice left.lol.
our comm skills mentor was damn ARG!!can't she inform us before hand that we need to get textbook from the photocopying shop?!!climd all da way up and then go all the way down to get the boook again!!she gave us like ten mins.haha.but we end up using twenty five.hahaha.super slack.
have you heard of teachers usin "wadever" in class like all da time?hahaha.well.my comm skills mentor do.and we had to do present this group mind map at the end of the lessons.and this is the first time i see such a slackish presentation.hahahaha.everyone was like.."ya.something like that".."wadever"..so overall was SLACK!!haha.
had colour theory tutorials.it was at MAC lab.cool.haha.there's like two MAC labs in my school.hahahaha.was supposed to learn how to use corwell classic painter 9.but our mentors are so "prepared".they didn't even notice that there was no projector in dat particular mac lab.so she only say it orally.and we followed.because they was no projector.we end lessons early.so cool ar.
MAC is such a good comp!!i wan lah!!haha.i noe who has it.hahaha.and you silly girl actually complain that its lousy.haha.
went for club crawl again(cca thingy).put my name down for adventure club.was okay wit it.cause they only train once a weeek.hahaha.
that's all for school today.
so bye:))

hey girl,I wanna catch your wave
hey girl,I wanna drift away with you
hey girl,you've got an undertow
hey girl,hey girl, don't wanna let you go!!!

2006-04-18T22:09:00.000-07:00

school today was rather borin.
went to club crawl.so many ccas.didn't noe wad to join.so didn't put my name down for any.hahah.
lectures was next.okay.lectures are seriously borin.but i still have to bear with it.damn!
GABATE!to mayself.hahahha
homework again!!just finished one module assignment and here comes another one.
PAINT COLOUR WHEEL.ppl who doesn't noe.think its easy.but.man.its tedious!!well.still have to do it.
town-ed after tat.met nat,dan,shuyu,rach and maysi for dinner.maysi was super duper late.but never mind.cause we all had dinner first.hahaha.ate at MAC.double filllet-o-fish meal and shaker fries.hahhaa.yumyum!!!walked to cine to get rach and maysi's dinner.then when to heeren.shuyu showed us her cute guy.then walked around.
when home after tat.cause all of us were tired.hahha.

got scolded by my mum cause she say i talked more to my friends than to my silbling.
okay.fine.who ask my elder sis to poke her nose imto my business in da first place.so i'm not tellin her anything.if not she'lll start pokin her nose into my business again.
then,i didn't help my sis to get her stuff out of the car oso my fault.
AHH.wadever shit lah.i'm at fault.
the reason i talk to my friends more is because they noe wad's goin on.and do my mum happen to noe that i talk to my younger sis more too.cause she noes wad's gg on too.

ahh.who cares!
off i go.
just think about my sweetie and everything will be fine:)))

2006-04-17T10:21:00.000-07:00

SCHOOL!!
today.
let see how school actually goes in poly.hahaha
gona go for club crawl later.to take a look at ccas.
yuppy.

i've been living like i'm greamin the past few days.
tell me its true.

2006-04-16T11:30:00.000-07:00

NO SCHOOL today!!
WTH!
hahahah.
never mind.its school tomoro!!AT 1510.THAT'S HOW LATE.HAHAHA:D
well.didnt slept soundly last nite.so i'm kinda lackin sleep.so its good that there's no lesson today.hahha.
woke up a few times.cause i got stuff to think sbout.hmm.and i found out that i've got quite a few question to ask before i can confirm my decision.
guess it'll pissed you off.cause its like i'm doubting you again.but somehow.i'm afraid that history would repeat itself.and its not once.but many time.seem so real then still didn't work out.feel a little "cheated".hahha.
you sound true this time.i just hope that your love for me will still be strong enuff when trouble comes.

2006-04-15T00:41:00.000-07:00

i totally didn't have the mood to come online last night.hahah.
so i went to sleep.super earlyy!!.at ten lah.hahhhaha.
well.still woke up in da middle of the night.like WTH lah.hahaha
nvm.
oh well.
went out with np PEEPs today.was hangin out at marina square.GOSSIP a whole lot of time.hhahahah.well.then walked around.bought two tees and my pencil case.felt like buying more tees cause it was all like on 40% sales.lah!!!but didn't.
i'm like sooooOO brokee!!i spent 200+ for my printer today.HEARTACHE.hahaha.but this kind of pain is still not as pain as that kind of heartache.so.still can take it.hahaha.

tomoro will be suntanning day man.hahha.goin to da grave yard.hahahha.
still left wit one more sketch!!gotta complete it ASAP!.hahaha

since we can never be together again.
since there's no more us.
just let me be your guardian angel.
let me be the one always there for you.
cause i promise i'll be there.
be it a phone call away.
or a thousand miles.
i'll still be there.

teach me a way to forget.
cause till now.
feelins is still unchanged.

2006-04-14T15:13:00.000-07:00

BORED!!!!
finished 4/5 sketches.guess i'll finish the last one tomor.kinda tired.not in da mood.
listenin to PCD,stickwitu now.this songs only makes me think of you.
SIGHS...
i haven fagged for months.good sign.gona quit smoking.simply because you dislike smokers.so i'm gona quit.
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i shall go back to sleep:)

2006-04-13T23:47:00.000-07:00

wad's actually goin through my mind now?

I WAN YOU BACK!!!!I WAN YOU BACK!! I WAN YOU BACK!!!!!!!!!!

why did you leave??
:(((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((

2006-04-13T23:37:00.000-07:00

went out with yong jeng and amanda today.
haha.still don't understand why yong jeng's owaes carry that ah ma umbrella.MAN!.and she carried that to down lah.LOL.hahaha.
went to hong leong building first.cause amanda had to go for some interview.haha.
ten when to town.went to eat at galilee and friends.haha.shared "the best of both worlds",cookie and cream milkshake,strawberry smooties and mango madness.hehheh.was on a budget so all shared.hahahahah:D
watched "keepin mun" today.haha.well.it was rather funny.but wasn't as funny as i tot it would be.heh.so i think it was only alright.hahahah.i guess i wanna catch "take the lead".looks nice.hahaha.i bought a cd!!its called 20 scorching hits.hahah.not bad not bad.heh.
hmm.when home after that.yupp.
guess i'll stay home tomoro.heheh.
saturday will be occupied wit gg out with np peeps.yupp.can't wait too!!!hahaha:D

...over...
don't wan it to be over.
but do i have a choice?
thanks for tellin me that you kinda love me at da end.
but
i wish i didn't noe.
cause somehow i felt so down..

if you really loved me.
then labels wouldn't matter.
guess it was because it was only 'kinda'.

2006-04-12T23:59:00.000-07:00

went back to school today.collect award thingy and art stuff.hmm.well.guess it'll be our last time steppin into that school.haha.da way they run things in school seriously sucks.haha.
i shouldn't be sayin school anway.cause my present school is NANYANG POLY!!! no longer STC!.hahahaha.GREAT!:)
school's startin on MONDAY.can't wait man!hahah.can't believe that i only have 50mins of lecture on thurs !!hahaha:D
still left with two more sketches to complete.will get it done by fri!!:)MUST.hah.was supposed to go out with nat,dan,maysi,rach and shuyu to kbox.but it was cancelled.cause few of them needs to attend church:((
i'll be like so free on fri.so is dan.hahahah:D anyone FREE?? ask me out!:DDDDD
was my sort of "last day" at work today.haha.any feelins?no. cause i was very sure that i would be back workin very soon.heh:)
willl be out wit yong jeng and amanda tomoro.YIPEE!!:) catchin a movie,i guess.haven stepped in a cinema for a long time.cause when we plan to,something else always cropped up and we don't get to watch it?!!!hahaha.

wad do you want me to say?
it won't make any difference anyway.
well.
if i were to really get occupied when school starts
to think about other stuff.
that'll only means i'm decieving myself.

cause everyday,there's only you in my mind.
no matter how busy i am.

2006-04-11T11:30:00.000-07:00

okay.its eleven april.which marks one month after break up.hmm..oh well.hai
anyway.gotta rush.cause i wanna re do my sketches.viewed one of my classmates sketches.and it was super up to standard.i think compared to mine.mine is just rubbish.oh MAN!!!!gotta go gotta go!!.

my sweetest dream was you:)

2006-04-10T00:44:00.000-07:00

hello!:)
i'm back from wrok.well.get to noe K.B better today.we talked more than the previous time we worked.haha.he's quite funny.haha.and he's da second guy that i noe of who will go like,"never mind.you do other things,i'll do da washing."and he'll go"never mind.i help you."which is wad other guys at bongout would do.hahah.travers is da first.but he's gay.hahaha
K.B was so happy today.at least something made him happy today.haha.joanne peh was at my workplace today.and K.B was like crazy over her.hahaha.well.i don't really fancy her.haha.i prefer felicia chin and fiona xie!!hahaha:DD
K.B asked me how to find out if a girl still have feelins for him a not.well.i was stunned.cause i didn't really noe how to tell him.so i asked wad happen.and he told me his story.something went wrong wit his ten month relationship wit this 18 yrs old girlfriend.that's one reason why he asked me.cause i'm eighteen too.hahah.LOL.well.in two more months:))
he say his gf haven been like last time.they don't go out often.da most on an average,one wk once.i was thinkin.hmm.sounds familiar.haha.then he say he's da one that have to owaes ask her girl out,and her girl owaes takes a long time to confirm wit him.sounds familiar too.and then,when he missed call his gf,she doesn't bother to call back.but usually his gf would in da past.and the reason for not answerin is because she was watchin TV.oooOOO.even more familiar.hahahaha.well,then.when his gf is wit him,she always reply msges to frinds and ans calls from friends.but when KB msges her,his gf takes hours to reply.and the reason was because she busy or someother crap.haha.FAMILIAR again!haha.
oh well.somehow,i told K.b about me bein a _______.first guy i tell too.he didn't mind.he say it doesn't bother much and that if he had a _______ gf,it would be better.hahaha.cool.hahaha.
he oso say that its would be good to tell my future bf that i was once a ______.cause if he really loved me,it wouldn't matter much.hha.
anyways,i told K.B to see how it goes by not contactin his gf for a week or two,if his gf really don't bother to find for him or ask why.then forget the whole lot.cause that girl must have lost feelins already or wad he say,not interested anymore.WELL.that girl should treasure wad she got.K.B is a good guy.hahaha.
he's still tryin hard.well.my story has ended and i doubt it will ever contiune.keep tryin!!im sure she'll come back to you. anyway.K.B reminded me that tomoro will mark one month after my break up.

i totally agree wit shuyu's nick!!

i'd rather have bad times with you,
then good times with someone else.

2006-04-09T23:27:00.000-07:00

!!ching-cheang-chang!!
crap.wad talkin me?!hahahhahha:Dwatched da last episode of that tiying show today.happy endin.OBVIOUSLY!?.hahha.oh wells,happy endings only happen in shows and fairytales.and we're livin in neither of those worlds.sad case.hahha.
i just found out that alot of ppl actually regret after they got married.they either divorce or just remain in wadever shit they got into and quarrel everyday.hmm.none of da choice seem right.hahha.
maybe i should be like my other aunties.just remain single.isn't an bad idea either.just that when get older,will be kinda troublesome.don't really trust guys.they can really be nice and sweet to you.but once they got wad they want from you.they would just dump you aside.well.don't noe lah.hahhaa.
anyway.why am i talkin about all this?!!hahahah.nonsense.
i cooked EBI FRY and TEMPURA today!!hhaa.ebi fry was a sucess but my tempura was kinda failure.hahaha.but never mind.i shall try again next week.heh.i was suppose to finish at least two sketches today.but i didn't.heh.was rather tired after all da cookin.hahha.hmm.okay.i'm givin excuses.hahaha.well.shall finish it tomoro.hahahha.
tired of typin.so i shall stop here.hehheh:)
tatas:))

tu rang tian kong yi pian liao kuo
wo cai fa xian
yuan lai ni zhen de yi jing li kai wo

just stuck with thoughts of you.

2006-04-08T23:31:00.000-07:00

BORING!!:((
today was simply boring.hahha.quiet saturday.heh.
went to town with my sis to get stuff for school.and then went back to my mum shop.after that,went to my aunt place.
that's all! see!its totally boring.hahha.
well.school's startin.i'm HAPPY!!!!!!cause i'll be busy.then i can occupy myself with work,cca,work,cca,work,cca and more work and cca!!hahahah.then won't think about other stuff tat still make my heart ache.hahahha.
okay.i shall learn from dan.go jio other ppl in poly.hehheh;). hahahha.
okay.school hurry start!!!:)))can't wait man!!hahaha:DD

okay.gtg! have to go check my time table:))

bruised and battered by your words.
days are shattered.
now it hurts.
haven't i always love you?

2006-04-07T00:58:00.000-07:00

today was FUNN!!!
hahahhahahahhahahahhahahahahhahahahahahhahahahhahahhahahahhahahahhahahahahahhahah.
didn't go back for sports day today.ood or bad?i don't noe.haha.well.after dropin off my sis,dad drove pass your mum's car.bet you didn't even notice.haha.hmm.well.like who will?only bian tai like me,will.hahah.
went to meet dan at taka,coffee club with nat.it was still so early.like 10:30.
haha.still sleepy.haha.i ordered vanilla milkshake.which is made of three scoops of vanilla ice cream,milk and another additional scoop of vanilla icecream at the end.WAH!!!how fattening can it get?!hahahha.we ordered a plate of potato wedges and shared.felt super full lah!!
after tat,we went to look for dan's adiddas bag.HAHA.but someone bought it already.so much for hidin da bag,and still its gone.hahaha:D
shopped round taka,where the kid's section were.we looked like ppl who are deprived of childhood.cause we were like so fasinated by all da funn TOYS!!haha.i think ppl ard us tot that we were SIAO TING DONG lah.hahha.
hmmm..then i forget where we went after that.OH!totally.we went to the toy shop near art friend.stayed in there for quite a long while man.we went ard playin with every toy lah.hahha.it was so darn fun.hahah.cause we were super retarded!haha:DD
went into art friend to jalan jalan for a while too.took photo of us wearing this hat made of foam.hahahah.cool lah.haha.didn't stay in art friend for long cause there wasn't anything much.haha.
we got tired of walkin.so we went to rest our legs at the public bench just outside.hahha.sat there till nat decides to get out of taka to stalk ppl from stc.hahah.while walkin to heeren,we saw MR.WONG!!hahahha.we practically screamed LAO SHI from quite a distance.haha.i guess people must know that he's a teacher already.hahahha.when we also saw this two sec ones staring shyly at danica lah.hahahha.wah!!dan,got admirers ar..hahahahha.danica is so gona kill me if she sees this.hahha:)
when to cine.saw much of theresians.went to galilee and friends.and that's when you see danica's fan cub.hahha.we made quite a grand openin when we entered.haha.knocked onto chairs.and laughters!!haha.we just sat down for not long.and netballers came to ask to take photo wit dan like small fanss.hahaha.
we ordered one main course and the "best of two worlds",i think.haha.shared again.hahaha.for drinks..i ordered vanilla frappes wit hazelnut.hahaha.FATTENIN DRNIK again.i bound to gain weight man.hahahha.maysi joined us too.but she was sick,so she didn't eat.haha.we played UNO!.haha.and i think danica got too carried away wit her story tellin cause she spilled her drink.hahah.poor waitress had to clean up da mess.haha.
we left for kbox after eatin.woo!!!!we went bonkers inside man!!!!jumpin around.esp,maysi.she was like bouncing up and down the sofa lah!hahaha.we sang,no..most of the time we were like screamin!hahahahaha.FUN.FUN.FUN.!!!hahaha
singin session eneded at 7 plus.maysi left early cause she had to rush for church thingy.
met rach and shuyu at rocky master after that.heh.we had no idea where to go next.so we just took a stroll to paragon.there was some fashion show thingy.so we stood there and watched.critising who's pretty and whose not.haha.the way the models walked are like so funny.haha.they lean so back as if they're gg to fall.haha.and those models are like super tall!!hahahha.
went to crumpler aft that.i've decided to get da purple crumpler.maybe next wk.hahaha.
shuyu wanted to eat long john.so we walked bak to cine to have long john.and guess wad.we changed our seats three times.crazy sia.hahahaa:DDDhad salsa cheese fries.well.sittin at that particular table before we changed...reminded me of...that day.but never mind.hahs.
ARCARDE was next.heh.wanted to do da car racin thing together but one machine was down.so we went play the "concentration game" hahaha.don't wad's that called.had to find the missin things from the pics.hahha.had fun.testin of eye sight.hahaha.well. i went home after that.rach,nat and dan con't playin.haha.

next fri is our next outin!!!!!!yeay!can't wait.hahahaha:DD

miss you loads.but i'm not suppose to.
:(

2006-04-06T00:04:00.000-07:00

okay.too bad.i have no choice but to follow choice no.2.many change of plans in just one day.will not be goin to sentosa alr.gona meet nat tomoro at 9.40 to go for sports day.hmm.nat told me to be prepared.cause i'll definetly see ... .but i guess i won't cause it'll be damn crowded on that day.so chances are low.hahha.dan told wished me luck too.told me if i wasn't feelin right.i can go to her and she'll consel me.HAHA.nonsense lah.this danica toh is full of crap!hahah.
will be meetin dan and i think shuyu first in town after sports day thingy end.hahha.we're gona have peepr lunch for lunch tomoro.hahahah.yeay!can't wait for tomoro man!sure to be FUNNNN!!!!hahahha:D maysi and rach will only be joinin us in da evenin.yeay again!haha.its so gona be funn!!hahah.okay enuff of tomoro.
let's talk about today.hmmmxxx.well.some voices in my head have been whispering in my head for da whole day.even till now! "its da SIXTH toady!stella ng,its the SIXTH.."and it goes on and on.like wth.and like so what!its already over.hah.
i lead a healthy lifestyle today man!!haha.went for mornin jog at tiong bahru park.though it was only a short 10 mins jog.my leg muscles are hurting now!!hahah.must be because i haven been exercisin for many months.haha.so nice to jog in da dark.with no sun.hahha.coolin!haha.then i took shower and then slept till like 12.hahha.just in time for lunch.let me see..wad did i eat?...oh! i ate cornflakes.SEE.so healthy.hahha.read the papers,then sat ard till three plus.then left for work.hahah.met yong jeng,amanda and sean.
yong jeng,amnada and i have decided that we shall go to marina for dinner next thurs!hahaha.cool.can't wait.another bongout outin.heh.
sean was damn funny.he kept makin fun of yong jeng.okay.not only sean.its actually the both of us.hahaha.yong jeng is just such a nice person to bully.haha.and guess wad.yong jeng will be workin wit kar heng and sean tomoro again!hahahaha.yong jeng is sooo poor thing.haha.sure kena bully untill very bad one.hahahha.

i still go on everyday thinkin bout you.

goin off.tata. need energy for so many activities tomoro.HEH:)

2006-04-05T22:09:00.000-07:00

kaboom!
hahha.i'm home early today.heh.worked the early shift,so of course end work early.LOL.hahhaa.but,unfortunetly,i had to stayed back for about an hour and a half to make green tea ice cream.well,i'm paid doin that.soo.hahha.it was okay.hahha.manage to catch up wit yong jeng today.hahaha.yeay!like finally.haven seen yong jeng for more than a week.haha.so nice to crapp wit her.but i guess most of the time its me bullyin her.hahaha.well,kar heng and sean was there too.and they were oso bullyin yong jeng lah.hahaha poor thing.and ANYWAY,yong jeng is only for me to BULLY okay.hahahahaha.jk..jk.hahha.LOL

met nat at ard six-twenty,down at her place.hhahah.went to valley point.nat wanted to do some marketing at cold storage.HAHA.of course NOT.when would nat do marketin?!hahha.just went to shop ard cold storage.hahha.we just love to walk ard super market.hahha.we came across this section which sells all easter stuff.chocs and all.hahaha.then it reminded us how much fun we were havin last year.,choosin easter prezzie.haha.MEMORIES.hahah.it reminded me of wad i bought for ... when i saw those chocs.hahha.cool.haha.EASTER is comin.and i guess,ppl at STC will recieve lots of easter eggs.hahaha.i remembered that when i used to be at kellock,we had this treasure hunt thing on easter.then everyone will be comparing the eggs they found after it ends.hahah.FUN.haha.

and yes,ppl ard me are like fallin ill.so scary.i don'yt wanna get sick!!.hahaha.so ppl better take care!!!!hahh.

its da 6th tomoro.
do you remember?
why should you.
its already over.
NO more anni.
its OVER.

2006-04-04T01:05:00.000-07:00

back from work again.
hahha.wad a life.haha.ooOO.i love the modern rock #02 cd that i bought.the songs are so rockin.hahaha.hahahaha.well.there's one song by 3 doors down.brought back memories.sad ones.hmm.oh well.its over.hahaha.
listenin to papa roach now.SCARS.hahaha.nice song!!hahah.....i tear my heart open,i sewed myself shut..my weaknesses that i care too much...i'm sorry but i gotta move on wit my own life.hahaha...at least i could say i TRIED..i'm sorry,but i gotta move on with my own life.hahaha...scars reminds us that the past is real.hahaha.NICE song!!!
my eyes are like swollen.lack of sleep,i guess.haha.-yawns-
work was alright today.except that the crowd came only at the last min.get really pissed when that happens.hahha.for only a few seconds.oh well.its been me.i haven get really angry about things for a long time.anger fades so easily now.even if things makes me angry,it'll only last for less than a day.more optimistic now,i guess.hahahah.but one thing i still gotta work on is tat i should stop thinkin about wad could have been...hahaha.have to remind myself that's its over.haha.gotta move on.hahah.rights.
well.about my homework.i'm done wit two of my sketches.still left with three more!!.hahah.gotta complete it by next week.gotta work faater than this.hahah.jiayou!!hahaha:)
hmm.i guess i'll have more time next week.gona stop work for a while.haha.and 12th is my so called last day.hahaha.GREAT!

2006-04-03T00:29:00.000-07:00

back from work.
kinda tired,though its not really busy today.hmm.haven seen yong jeng for quite a while.we've been seperated:((haha.miss crappin with my workin partner.hahaha.amanda's b'dae is on wed.meetin her tomoro at work.so i better passs her the prezzie tomor.but i've yet to go get one.hahaha.man!i totally sucks at choosin presents.hope i get something that she'll like.hahaha.

oh!i can't wait for FRIDAY!!!!will be goin to sentosa.and kbox!!haha.danica please spread message!!hahaha.hope everyone can turn up lah.choose between 1. goin back for sports day. and 2. goin to sentosa.well.i take the second option.at least i can have fun.if i go back for sports day.will i be havin as much fun.or will i be back to the depression mode again?
haha.don't noe lah.

and den sat.will be meetin some old np kaki-s for lunch and movie.haha.lookin forward to it too!!!:))

woah!so many activities!yeay!!!

two more days to da sixth.
since there's no more us.
there's no more anniversary.

2006-04-02T00:20:00.000-08:00

okay.i woke up at 2 plus in da afternoon today.hahahha.must be a pig man.hahah
hmm.dreamed about things i shouldn't be dreamin abt.oh wells.never mind.hahha
its sunday.so as usual.had to go down to my aunt's pl.haha.but before that,i went shoppin!!haha.my daddy is soo kind lah.he sponser me 50 bucks and my mum sponsered me another fifty,so that adds up to a hundred.hahaha.DUH.hah.yupp.went to bugis street.bought two bers and two shirts.shopped till like six plus,then went back to my aunt's pl.still have remainin money.heheh.so i can get more clothes some other day.hahaha.YEAY!!
i've yet to finish my homework.fiveA4 size sketches,best to be in 3D.i've only done one piece of A4 size sketches.gotta work faster!!!haha.
watched campus superstar just now.well.geraldine got out.sad.zhiyang won.not bad.he can sing.and he doesn't look bad either.haha.i'm not that enthu about all these like i used too.don't noe why.weird.hahaha.
i love most of the songs sang in the show.haha.kiss goodbye!love it!!hahaha.

so contradicting
love those songs
but yet, i don't wan to hear them.
cause it only bring back memories.

2006-04-01T00:26:00.000-08:00

SHALALALA.hahahaha.
okay.i'm super tired now.but i shall still blog,cause i haven been bloggin for daysss.haha.
ORIENTATION!!!!

DAY 1
woke up at like 6.50 a.m cause i have to be in school before 8.30.haha.had to be early.wasn't farmiliar wit my NEW school.haha.
was super surprise that there were so many ppl who went in to DMD(digital media design).haha.COOL.heh.i was like in group one.and there's raftly about 20 ppl in my group.and that will be my class for this whole year.frankly,i was quite lost at first.cause i couldn't find ppl that i could click wit.the girls were soooOO quiet and kinda nerdy.hahahaha.the guys there was also rather quiet.so first day of orientation was rather borin.cause we hardly talk to anyone.
we waited for the rest of ppl to finished register,which also means that i sat there waitin for at least an hour.like wth.haha.we had ice breaker games after that.not forgetin,we met our OGLS(orientation group leaders).my group OGLS were syraf,isk and isk.they were hyper ppl with full of craps lah.hahaha.i was surprise to find two other IJ girls who were from my group too.haha.after lunch and lectures.we had to come up group cheers and name.and when we sat round to discuss,everyone was like sooo quiet.couldn't stand it!then this guy,called chun kiat from CH started to give comments.but still,the rest was not talkin.like ARGHH!.then,this girl called rosalind gave a few ideas too.and still...no answers.so i decided to help out by being responsive.gave suggestion and help the both of them who were trying to lighten the atmosphere out a little.i askes the group a few questions.and still they didn't reply.so it was like DOTS DOTS DOTS.so it was like rosalind and me discussin and chun kiat and other guy,tan yaw.discussin.and the rest just follow the flow.sssoooo first day of orientation was super borin!!hahah.

DAY 2
woke up at the same time.cause orientation starts at the same time too.hahah.the group was more relaxed then the previous day.we started to talk to each other more and i could see that at least ppl were tryin by takin initiative to talk to one other.haha.but the girls were seriously too quiet.haha.not use to it,i guess.i've been mixin ard with friends that are soo noisy and crappy.hahah.it was games day today.we had like many games lined up for us.and i guess because of those games,we became more united lah.and we all of us were closer.even the quiet ones are talkin.hahaha.i made a new friend which both of us have the same interest for the same cca.cool.haha.and she stayed at YISHUN and i stay at admiratly.so we both took train home home after orientation.and guesss wad,she's from an IJ school too.like COOL.hahah.and i found out that i'm not weird for bein feelin a little weird when i know my new classmates.haha.she felt uneasy too.cause its like we can't be like how we used to be in secondary school and the girls are not like those who were from IJ school.not are not loud ppl like us.they are so QUIET!!hah.and this girl has a name,she's called syrah.she mixed blooded.like cool.her dad's a chinese i think and her mum's a malay.haha.and we have a new OGL.she's sabrina.she's like super cute!!and super hyper.always makin soo many sound effect and all.hahaha.she looks like a malay budden she's chinese.hah.and she goes,wo shi hua ren,wo hui jiang hua yu.so anyone yao jiang hua yu to me also can.hahaha.damn cuttee!!!:)))became closer to my new classmates after all da activities on this day.like FUNNN!!!:))

DAY 3
last day of orientation.we had to perform a skit for the grand finale.i stayed up till two thirty in da mornin to finish the props.and i reached nyp at 8am.darnn tired!could hardly opened my eyes.hahaha.but i was happy cause at least our groups were workin together.talkin more.crappin more.but still not as loud.hahaha.the guys were more like guys.they crap and joke ard more.and not bein like naing niang who pretend to be shy.hahah.espcially adly.couldn't stop crappy.hahaha.i lovemy group OGLS.they are like so funny.hahaha.i tot of joinin sdn(school of design) club.so can also be an OGL.that'll be so cool.hahah.and ya.there's another OGL called winston.he's like sooooo CUTE!!!he's full of crap too.and super funny.he look like he's mixed blood.a little ang moh.so SHUAI!!!!!!hahaha:DD.budden the way he walk abit gay.HAHAHAHAHA.told danica about him.and she ws like sayin,wah wah.turnin straight ar.hahano lah.don't turn straight doesn't mean cannot look at shuai guys right.haha.anyway.i don't intend to commit myself in another relationship.at least not now.maybe concentrat on studies and my cca first.heh.well.we enede by takin group photos.then i rushed down to STC,cause i was supposed to collect colours award.but in the end,i didn't.heh.was not dressed formally lah.like excuse me!i just came back from orientation!!haha.who cares lah.anyway,its just a piece of paper.

collect year book alr.but kena sai!!look so awful lah.okay.i noe i alr don't look nice.but still.eww.hahahaha.met danica toh in sch.and she can't collect her award on that day too.hahah.she we have to go back to school another day.heh.DANICA!don't forget!FRIDAY!SENTOSAA!!!!!:D

maybe like wad you say,i would not be so free to think about the past after i enter poly.
so wrong.
i still miss you.
i stilll care for you.

2006-03-28T00:23:00.001-08:00

i'm feelin so darn bloody tired now.
anyways.TODAY.
went to RP with nat and her mummy.nat's mummy is soo funny lah.hahaha.nat finally got her laptop.i feel happy for her.HAHAH:D
we rushed down to queenstown stadium after that.met up wit ying ming and julie cause we were afraid we'll be chased out by teachers.we tot that we were not allowed to go back for sport heats.but surprisingly,the teachers are so friendly.haha.they allow us to go back for sports day too.but i guess,we'll see bout it.haha.pei chen can really run darn fast lahhh.lorraine's not bad either.after heats was WORK.busy BUSY busy.hahaha.
i'm like talkin to danica toh on msn now and bloggin.that's why i'm like takin such a long time!haha.we're comparin hols.hahaha.LAME.
i regretted not takin a glimsp of you.why did i pretend to look away??hai...
well.maybe you've alr found someone new.someone that you really love.as long as you're happy.i give you my blessins.stay happy always! study hard!

orientation's tomoro!!!haha.cool.

i don't even noe wad i'm doin these few days.haven been sleepin well.feel so tired.splitting headaches now and then.hmm.wadever lah.

2006-03-28T00:23:00.000-08:00

i'm feelin so darn bloody tired now.
anyways.TODAY.
went to RP with nat and her mummy.nat's mummy is soo funny lah.hahaha.nat finally got her laptop.i feel happy for her.HAHAH:D
we rushed down to queenstown stadium after that.met up wit ying ming and julie cause we were afraid we'll be chased out by teachers.we tot that we were not allowed to go back for sport heats.but surprisingly,the teachers are so friendly.haha.they allow us to go back for sports day too.but i guess,we'll see bout it.haha.pei chen can really run darn fast lahhh.lorraine's not bad either.after heats was WORK.busy BUSY busy.hahaha.
i'm like talkin to danica toh on msn now and bloggin.that's why i'm like takin such a long time!haha.we're comparin hols.hahaha.LAME.
i regretted not takin a glimsp of you.why did i pretend to look away??hai...
well.maybe you've alr found someone new.someone that you really love.as long as you're happy.i give you my blessins.stay happy always! study hard!

orientation's tomoro!!!haha.cool.

i don't even noe wad i'm doin these few days.haven been sleepin well.feel so tired.splitting headaches now and then.hmm.wadever lah.

2006-03-27T23:51:00.000-08:00

HMM.i noe nat have been doin all those to defend me.i'm seriously grateful and touched.but still,nat.you've gone too far. i read alr also xin tong ar!!!
SPEECHLESS.
well,work.
worked wit this new guy today.he's rather qute.haha.look like those yang guang nan hai.haha.he's oso damm funny lah..not that he's humourous but its just the way he does somethings.hahha.gona work wit another new guy tomoro.hai.i hate teachin new staff.why must i always be so suay!!hahaha.

really really sorry!!

2006-03-26T23:04:00.000-08:00

woah.people can actually "fight" through bloggin.haha.cool:)
well.nat and chuan.i noe the both of you have been always by my side when i'm down.but i think all those spasmin should end.don't be angry,i'm not even angry.so both of you should chill.hahahha.okay.i noe its not funny.but yupp.just stop all of those alright? i maybe upset or down.but don't worry.don't get worked up.i'll be alright:))i noe you all did all those to defend for me.thanks alot.really:))love both of you millions!!BUT,still.just don't continue anymore.
tiring you noe.hahaha.
anyways.orientation is COMIN!!haha.this meets school is gona start in three weeks time.hahah.cool!haha.well.lorraine say something which is quite true for me too.status can change but love still remains.and when i saw that msg i was like.TOTALLY AGREE lah.hahahha:DD
i'm feelin....disappointed,and real tired now.haha.wadever.like who cares.
so i'm gona stop here.heh.

status can change but love remains,silly girl.
do you hear me?

2006-03-25T00:03:00.000-08:00

just came back from the airport.went to the airport with chuanny to send SAORI off.so sad.she's leavin for japan and she'll not be comin back to spore anymore:(( but anyways,chuanny and i went to the viewin hall to look at planes.haha.it was so romantic there lah.hahaha.goin to the airport only remind me that i haven been goin for overseas trip for many many many years!!haha.sad case!!:((but nvm.i shall look forward for the end of the year.cause i'll be flyin off to AUSTRAILIA!!!!yeay!!hehh.
well.chuan and i spent quite a while at the viewin hall.cause we wanted to see planes take off.haha.just like small kids.hahah:DD
both of us talked a lot.but most about our relationship and stuff.i asked chuan,why did she contiune her relationship when she noes that there's no endin to it.oh well.maybe not really no ending lah.but yupp.just that it'll not last.and could raftly guess her answer.and i was correct.just simply,bu guan tian zhang di jiu,zhi zai yi cheng jin yong you.and this has brought them so far.at least the longest i've come across with.THREE YEARS.and still goin strong.chuanny.you're my IDOL.hahahhaha:D well,guess i can only envy.hahaha.nat's also my idol too!!!they've made it through one year.despite ppl's gossip.applauds for both of them.hahahaha.
okay.guess i shall stop here:)) i'm tired! should get some sleep:)

2006-03-24T00:30:00.000-08:00

okie dokie.
went out with rach,nat,dan,maysi and janet today.hehe.early celebration for rach b'dae.
firstly,we went to fish and co.ordered the seafood platters thingy.though the six of us shared the platter thingy,we still couldn't finish it.was so fillin.hahaha.and we ordered this super big cup of drink.it was so big so we decided to share one cup each for two person.haha.nat and i ordered the jungle freezie.i think its called the jungle freezie.haha.anyway.its was some jungle thingy.then rach ,dan,maysi and janet orderd the monkey something something.hahahaha.okay.i've forgotten the name of the drinks.heh.
janet and maysi bought this small piece of cake for rach.it was suppose to be a surprise.but maysi was so darn funny!!her movement and all was so obvious tat everyone could guess wad she was doin.hahahaha.maysi's darn funny lah.and she's always so slow in her reaction.like super slow.hahaha.okay.then,we went to crumpler after our food.i'm so gona get the PURPLE crumpler.hahahaha:))
we walked to heeren to take neos after that.we didn't noe how to read those jap words so we just anyohow press.hahaha.the first machine wasn't that bad.but the second one was darn funny.we had to pose for so long before the flash came.haha.and rach always forgot that she had to wait for the flash thingy before the photos are taken.so she'll move and then her "unglam" movement was taken down.hahaha.she was so pissed lah.haha.
janet left after we took the neos.she had to go home early.yupps.so it was left we me,nat,rach,dan and maysi.haha.actually we tot of catchin a movie.we tot of watchin TRANSAMERICA.but the earliest time was alr sold out.so we decided to eat ICE CREAM instead.hahaha.we went to..i forgot the place name.HAHAHAH:DD.well.anyways.we ordered this big bowl with EIGHT scoops of ice cream.haha.while waiting for our ice cream to come,we played BINGO and though maysi was the slowest,she kept winnin.haha.and she was sooo happy cause this is the first time she won so many times.hahaha.the,when the food came,we were all busy eatin but maysi kept askin us to con't playin.but no one bothers.hahahahaha.so poor thing.hahaha.then my mum called to rush me home.so i left half way.haven even finished the ice cream yet:((

to those ppl i don't noe and don't even noe me.
say wadever you all like.put me down for all you want,i'm not gona bother.let me tell you why.
firstly,you all don't even noe me.
secondly,my conscience are clear.i noe i've never let your friend down in anyways the past three months.your friend should noe it as well.
but please spare a tot for your friend or maybe yourself.cause i totally believe that wad goes around comes around.

2006-03-23T00:46:00.000-08:00

okay.finally went for my medical check up.hehheh.so troublesome.have to go for x-ray and all.
met nat at five to get rach birthday prezzie.hehe.we'll be gg to celebrate at fish and co tomoro.PTS! HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!:))
well.was rather moody today.it just seem that i'm just lying to myself.i think about you everyday.and its seem that it only get worse.thinkin about you doesn't stop.hai.wadever lahs.read nats tagboard today.guess i must be real asshole.even ppl who i don't noe and ppl who don't even noe me are sayin that i'm indecisive,that i'm wantin wantin wantin and lustin over others.like i'm some kind of despo. what did i do wrong?? i just love with you with all my heart.that's all.sad?not say anymore.cry?don't cry anymore.angry?not even. maybe just disapointment.cause in your eyes,i'm actually such a person.so not worthy of anything,anyone.

you've left it all behind.move on.and i find myself still here,where you left.wad am i still waitin.i don't noe. do you ever think of me? miss me?i don't noe.but i noe i do.

2006-03-20T23:11:00.000-08:00

hello.
went to put on BRACES today.heh.got my purple and lime green braces.hehehee.was supposed to meet chuan and nat after that.but i only end up meetin nat.hahah.okaynot quite only nat.i made a new yet old friend today.haha.i met up with danica too.haha.man.this is the first time i've talked so much to danica lah.in school,she's like always bullyin me.so kinda afraid of her.haha.wells.i think she's not that scary afterall.hahaha.danica's FUNNY.hahaha.and she's SLOWWW.hahaha.we talked about many stuff and found that we're kinda in the same situation.hahaha.cool.haha.
we were all havin fun lookin out for laptops when mty elder sis called to spoil it all.damn it lah!!she actually saw those msges i tot i deleted in my old sim card tat she's usin now.like wtf.anyway.wad's done is done.cannot be undone.like duh.glad she didn't tell my mum anything,if not i think i'll be kicked out of the house.but now.my sis is like watchin me so close.she said if she happen to know any second time.she's so gona tell my mum.WTF!i was so worried that you will get into deep shit from teachers.end up,looks like i'm in deep shit instead.
but weel.its over anyway.

can't wait for more goin out with nat and danica.they are like so funny!!LOL.hahahha.
you disappointed me not once.but many times.

2006-03-18T23:42:00.000-08:00

I SHALL GO FOR MORNIN JOG TOMORO!! hahah.must lead a healthy lifestyle!!haha:D RIGHTS.
just finished cleanin up my room.i'm such a good girl:)) i clean up my room like every weekend.heheh.maybe that's because i'm just to free.HAHA.okays.anyway.guess i'll soon be done with the enrolment stuff.still left with medical check up.i think ii'll go for it on tue mornin,cause i'm not free on mon.gotta put on braces and stuff.yuppy yupps.hehe:)
well.was down at my mum shop today.heard all of conversations betwen AUNTIES today.hahaha.okay.i'm so mean to say that.heh.they've been talking bout ppl dying of different dieases/illness,and about nature disasters.wad they have talked about only made me feel that the world is so BIG,but yet,its so FRAGILE.
humans are known as the most intelligent animal on earth and yet they still can't stop natural disasters from puttin an end to so many innocents lives.viruses and dieases have been killin ppl all over the world.and there's nothing we can do to help those that have contracted them.saddenin:(( we can only watch them die in agony:(( such a pity.people just come and go like that.
you maybe talkin on the phone with one of your friend who's perfectly fine one day,and who knows,the next day you'll be attendin his/her funeral.creepy!and like choi!!haha.but it do happen.and it'll keep you thinkin,like who's next?? open up the newspaper and just scan through it.everyday,there's like so many ppl dying.and yet some of us think of doin silly things to hurt ourselves when we meet with little set backs.wastin our time mournin over wad we know that cannot be the same again.
so i've decided to waste time which i can spend happily,to get upset over stuff that cannot be undone. live everyday likes there's no tomoro.but not in the sense that i splurge like nobody business.haha.but just ro live evryday to the fullest.do things that i enjoy,stay happy always.and if possible bring joy to people around me:)) wad an ambition.HAHA:DD not gona let other ppl words affect me so much anymore.if i were to get down or angry,i'll only allow myself to dip into depression for one day.be it to cry it out loud,scream at the top of my voice or wadever.it'll all only be allowed for a DAy.heh.cause i don't wanna waste too much time to live life unhappily.who knows,i maybe dead tomoro.hahaha. if others were to put me down,i'll just smile,say thank you and walk away.hahahah.i shall do that!:))

okie dokie.shall stop here.gona sleep cause i have to walk up early for mornin run tomor!heh:))

2006-03-17T13:55:00.000-08:00

back to blogg again!!!
will be starting school next month,on the seventeen.HEH.yeay!!!!NYP!!haha.been busy preparing for enrolment.hahas.and i have yet to go for the medical checkup.
orientation is like two weeks away.well.everything's gona start a NEW.FRESH.hehheh.good!!
i think i'll have to leave early durin orientation on the 30th.have to go back to STC for some award thingy.hmm.still considerin whether to go back.haihai.don't feel like goin back.i'll see about it.if nat's gg then i shall go back too.hehehe.
puttin on BRACES on mon!!and guess wad,i'll be gg out on mon too.i don't think i'll be able to eat.guess i shall just watch nat and chuan eat on mon.haihai.haha.PURLE AND LIME GREEN!!!.yes!yes!yes!.and the next time ORANGE.haha.cause that's girlfriend favourite colour!!hahaha.so MUST put!!!haha.
okay.shall stop here.gotta go settle enrolment stuff AGAIN!!

ni shou de gan jing
wo ye hui bu liu yi dian hen ji

2006-03-14T01:48:00.000-08:00

hmm.haven been bloggin for days.
well.if you see this entry,msg me or something.(you should noe who i'm referring to)
hmmm.to get over you.i think its really difficult.but i've tidy up my feelind.i'm all ready to be just your friend.but one thing i won't want to hide is that,feelings for you is still there.i don't know how is this possible.but yupp,i've sorted it out and made it clear to myself that we are just friends now.nothing more.still be there if you need someone to talk to or grumble bout stuff.

to the rest.
latest update.i'm gona put on braces next thurs.hahaha.PURPLE and LIME GREEN!!!yeay!.but first,i'll have to abstract two teeth the comin thurs.haiX.gona be bo gay!hahaha.

2006-03-11T13:30:00.000-08:00

i'm tired of crying.been doin that since last year.all of these should stop already.just gona put a stop to all these.
move on,is wad ishall do from now.
i'm sorry to say i don't believe that all the tears i've cried you've cried them too.cause in the first place,you don't love me.never.not once.
but,thanks for all those good memories you gave me.but sad to say,i'm not gona keep them.cause afterall,wad lies behind those memories are really ugly truth.and keep it will only bring me pain.
i'm not good enough for you,its true.
i don't deserve you,cause you deserve someone who looks better than i do.
you deserve someone who love you more than i do,i get it.

well,if you really get into trouble,just deny it.even they say they would call your parents.just deny it.there's nothing they can do.

hey,ppl.not gona blog for a long time i guess.

2006-03-10T12:11:00.001-08:00

why do i feel as painful.or would i say more painful then the other times.
every word you say.felt so real.i could that this time its for real.but why.why asked for a break up? this time.i noe its different.i'm not angry with you like i used to in the past.cause,baby,it felt so real.every word,every promise and every assurance.you did love me.i could feel it.i've never been so sure.it was not like last time.its not.BUT WHY?
i hate all those who gossip bout us!!i hate them all.wad right have you ppl got to judge me.you all don't even noe me!! compatible or not.its not up to all of you to say.
so,leave me alone was wad she told me.lets break was wad she told me.are you guys satisfied now???'pop' a champaign and celebrate for her.she don't deserve someone like me.cause i'm not good enough.

stab me a million times.
shoot me a zillion times.
the pain i get will never be as painful as this.

2006-03-10T12:11:00.000-08:00

2006-03-09T23:31:00.000-08:00

BOO!haha.
okay.i'm just feelin super sleepy right now.haha.maybe i shouldn't con't to watch the vcds.haha.aiya.heck lah.
well.today is like a brought down bad day lah.got scloded by setsuko san the moment i entered my work place.cause we forgotten to put the soya sauce and curry into the fridge.ahh.wth.
the next thing was peter pissed me off like totally lah!!i was just got into the kitchen to make the curry and he was like ni jui man de,kuai dian!kuai dian!.yi hou deng chu fang preapre hao le ni meng chai zhou ni meng de dong xi.like WHAT THE FUCK LAH!!!!i just fuckin hell got in the kitchen only lah.and like hello!andy is the chef lah,not you!his's not even complainin so wad are yanking about??!! like fuckin hell SHUT UP! i used to find that he was okay.but now,i think i have enough of his fuckin nonsense.
if we follow wad he do,which is always wad the lady boss doesn't like,we also get scoldin.like wth!yong jeng is like so right okay.you're not the one that give us our pay lah.so wad right have you got to ask us to do things your fuckin way.and another thing i dislike about him is that he's alr so old and yet he still go firltin with girls at geylang.like wad the hell.i don't give respect to give this kind of ppl alright.so sick!
but luckily there's yong jeng and amanda ard to crap with me.if not i'll just die!!hahaha.well.i drank a new combination of drink today.coke with oolong tea!:Dhaha.i told amanda to help me refill coke for me and she just pour coke straight into my cup,thinkin that i previously drank coke too.hahhaa.but this combination of drink wasn't that bad.hahaha.
stayed back after work for a while cause i needed yong jeng to help me translate the instructions on hoe to sew that teddy bear.haha.and then,i had jap lessons.got test by my two LAO shi.yong jeng and dennis.dennis is like so jian lah.when i was revising those words with yong jeng,he just sat there quietly and smile.then after,he was like,okay lets test you in a random way.he came up with plenty of words and aske dme to write the AIUEO thingy down.so stressed like.like four ppl stared at me when i was thinkin.hahah.but thanks anyway.haha.they're teachin me jap for FREE!!hahha.

pure obbession over my one and only!!<3

2006-03-08T11:39:00.000-08:00

hello everybody.
just came back from work.hmm.i think i was mood swingin at work.at first,i was like super hyper.kept talkin nonsense,and then i became super moody.like so upset at one moment then pek chek at another.totally crazy.when it was ard 9,i was like so quiet.didn't talk to anyone.people tried to crap with me but i didn't bother to entertain them.hai.was just super moody.don't know wad got into me also.normally i wouldn't let my mood affect me so much when i'm workin.just felt down lah.
but i'm alright now.hahaha.
anyway,i totally cannot tolerate peter(some assistance in the kitchen) today.he totally pissed me off lah.maybe one day i'll end up screamin at him.ask him to shut up.ANNOYING.

i promise you,my darling,that 'ill never not trust you again.
i'm sorry to make you so pissed:(